I straighten my hair
I put on the nice clothes
I make a beautiful smile
So nobody knows
I study really hard
I hang out with my friends
I crush on the boy
But the secrets weigh in
I wish things were different
I can cry myself to sleep
And now it comes to seem
My nightmares replace dreams
My brain can’t think straight
My hearts a mess
My family’s gone
I’m piled high with stress
I look in the mirror
I hate what I see
But nobody knows these things
Except for me
I can’t even trust my friends
It’s standard after standard
Everyone thinks I’m perfect
But everything is so hard
My friends have secrets that I have to keep
The pressure is on
The gossip, the rumors
I don’t want to play along
Teasing and assumptions
Are always made about me
Even though they’re wrong
I wish I could be set free
I wish I could change
My body, my skin, my face
My persona seems to change
And friends can betray
I don’t have it bad
I’m your average teenage girl
I am no different
Than the rest of the world
But maybe I want to be noticed
Appreciated for once
Is that something bad
To ask love for the runts
My heart’s gone heavy
I can’t keep it together
It feels like I’m drowning
In stormy weather
They hurt my feelings
And they don’t even know it
Do I do the same
This pathetic little poet
Blend in with the crowd
They say
I want to say no
But I can’t walk away
I’m so dramatic
I realize all I do is make a scene
Am I actually popular
Or just plain mean
How do I feel
About my classmates
Am I different or a follower
To love or to hate
I’m expected to like
Someone in particular
This boy or that one
Other people decide who goes with her
I guess I’ll be okay
I’ll be just fine
I’m taking life
One step at a time
Insecurities are always with me
I can’t change that
But I’ll be alright
Can I really change who I am?