They linger in my mind
"they" is my best kept secret
I came to a simple conclusion
but who am I to judge
to tell them how to feel
how to behave
I feel numbness in my heart
I am just waiting for my day to die

I had big dreams
but they were taken away
but it is ok

We are trapped in our childhood memories
our worlds are bricks of recollections
but not as painful as them
I caught a glimpse of their souls

I don't understand them
I question my sanity
are we just savages?
no respect for a young soul
no compasion
no love if there is a drop at all

if I could I would **** them
I don't have the courage
I am a coward
it was a rainy day when my innocence was taken away
yet a soul is dying every single day
how to make them understand the pain doesn't go away
you still feel when your body was *****

I can't believe what I saw
I can't believe what I heard
or is just them that don't go away
them, them who took my innocence away

the taste of their mouth liquor and cigarettes
if only I had a dagger on that rainny day...
they wrenched my skin
I thought they were my saviors
treacherous creatures
trust honesty loyalty
diluted across the pores of my though skin

I don't have the body of a child anymore
you took the innocent child
tender eyes, sweet smile
red, plump lips
sadness, sorrow and pain
I am stepping close to a cloud of hate

you caught me staring at the firmanent of nothingness
my thoughts wondered
in a twilight
in the emptiness
shallow lips
I stick my tongue inside your mouth
there is emptiness and darkness
but i fake it anyway


I will not come back
but someday you will know
it was not all in my mind
when you hold into the memory of our broken hearts


you will say i was just high
I am just one more shiny star
one billion years
one more year of lights
and with a broken heart I said goodbye
with a broken heart in the palm of my hand
looking for the real love that i might never find