I ******* trusted you
my heart on my sleeve
knowing you needed to be loved
so you said – so I heard
then stood by you when you were
alone at times in the middle of it all
when summer’s sun rose and set
on rocky shores used as wedding tides

You ******* lied to me
my ears not fully in my head
to hear your un-truths about where
you wanted to be,
who you wanted to remain,
what part of you letting go
while still so full of self
you’d had enough to throw around your weight
and beat me, my eyes in the clouds
unclear when to let go when I fell.

Don’t ******* tell me
to get my head out of my ***.
It’s been there for years
every time I run into the likes of you and your kind
hating every waking moment, unable to sleep
during the midnight sun, long since passed
while tracking down the influence of your problem
in my head.