Do you remember the way
That we'd act before anything happened
I remember our first couple of texts
And when we talked on the phone
The sound of your voice made me nervous
Typing in notes, trying to match your level
I felt like I had so much to prove.

You are tall and lean
Your hair swings when you let it down
I can look up into your face
But we are pretty neck and neck
In life
In our careers
In where we reside
In the way we look at art
Life
Maybe love, a little bit
At least.

I wore a purple blazer
The glow filling my face
You set up lights
I sit at tables and delegate
You dream of visions and lenses
I dream of
I'm not entirely sure actually.

You dangled high expectations before me
In my baseball cap I'd leap up and swing
Right into ownership, a self proclamation
It was you and your crew
Versus me and my crew
We sat on a bench
I remember the way we communicated
It was strong and direct
Whirling through long days
I started to enjoy standing by your side

I wanted to do whatever I could
To make sure that you felt cared for
A tug of war where I would secretly
Boomerang back and forth.

I wore red, long, sparkling eyes
We sat together, texting before
I grew to like you
I grew to favor you
I liked that we had something no one else had.

I remember the way we left the party together
And the way I danced with and away from you
Sometimes now, I'll play music and we'll get up and move together
I think to emulate that first night.

I don't want to think of myself as an interruption any longer
And I sometimes wonder when you think on me
If you marinate on the words I've given you
Or when your eyes meet mine
If you remember some of the lines
I fed you with an iridescent spoon.

You are very special to me Alex
Gratitude drifts up through the vines that entangle my bones
Like a flurry of flowers that cascade in and out of my spine
Glad that you can soak in and take in all the letters--
With your antics and the way you get nervous
Your solid colored t-shirts and your desire
To reach out and express
Attempting to give yourself what you want
I drift in my own cloud of holographics and paint.

The window you reach through
I've opened it
Though my heart and my legs do not
Relish in one place with you
And with you alone.

But even still
When we return to the well
And think on the water we both wanted to drink
At least we'll know
We gave each other a good lovin'.