what does it feel like,
to be worthless--
poor and *****,
cold and hungry?

or can you be well fed
loved, and filled with hope,
but still be worthless?

can you live your normal life
with a smile on your face
dancing around, singing--
laughing and hugging.

but then you can't eat
you shake at night,
over sleep, or under sleep
and do things to get rid of the pain.

is that what it feels like to be worthless?
to not have anyone by your sides
in order to keep you standing.

or to not feel anything,
when someone says
"I love you"

and when you see the people who
once loved you, walking happy
and content-- all you can do
is smile and wave--

even though you're all --
broken up inside,
no matter what you scream,
they will never hear you.

is that it?
can someone please tell me
the meaning
of this word


worthless.