If you asked me now To my face What I would have wished for Since before birth While I was still in the womb To have, and carry With me to the extinguishing Of my numbered days My answer would be such And I would spit it Into your face, your throat And your eyes So that it burned like hellfire Into your stomach I would need you to know But more importantly remember Like a scar On the back of your hand And a thought piercing your mind
It would be nothing foolish Though futile nonetheless I would not ask for a life without pain Or the riches of the streets That I awake the dust from It would be just this
Spare me Spare me the hopelessness Let me not even taste it Like metal in my mouth And smoke from a dying fire In my breath
Spare me the hopelessness The mental end of the rope The end of the line The no more track, We have already come to far You can turn back But for what But For what And for who And why
Just Spare me the hopelessness
This life tried to take me by the horns The world tried to lead me by a leash And I choked Choked out On misery and despair And I lay naked on the ice With my nails scratching into the frozen ground Trying to dig my own grave Still trying to light my existence like a match Just to feel Feel something And have it over take me But still be unchanged To taste But not be consumed
I wanted to live To wade in the water To pour my love out Like a river over the cliffs And dash myself With the waterfalls Over the rocks Again and again And again
I would meet you in the stars And we could dance with the sun Coaxing her into a rising To drench the horizon with her light And the fill the earth with promise
And if you asked me What would you take from the rest of the world I would be silent Fold my hands Like a prayer in my lap But my mind she would run To the back of my teeth And my voice she would catch In the hollow of my neck And what I wouldn't say is that, "I would take, Take it all, Ever bit of hope From east and west and beyond the seas."
Because to fall into this The tunnel with no light at the end Is a death I cannot live out