Iced coffee it’s a little chilly
Red eyeliner on my eyes

She’s beautiful but she’s lost and insecure
Like a little girl
But she’s gonna be so successful
You can see where she’s goin’
One of my best friends
Said about me.

It’s almost like
It would be better
If I disappeared a little
To make everyone more comfortable.

But I let those kind of thoughts go
I acknowledge my vulnerability
The quietness to my voice
And I hear him calling me babe and baby
And I too,
Let that go.

I’m gonna go
I packed my bags and time
I leave my laptop behind.

I find so rarely are people there
When you really need them
A self absorption fulfills us all.

But I wear Kyanite around my neck
With all it’s transmitve healing properties
And wait to board the plane
Hearing from my father
Chiming on how it’s all about to change.

I kind of don’t care sometimes
I’ve got that apathetic sad girl party vibe
At times.

She apologized
I relieve myself into the darkness
Sometimes none of it feels worthwhile
No camera
No computer
Just time with me.