I still envy your way of discarding me away,
I carry it as a badge of dignity everyday,
Was there any way that you would have stayed,
Behind my arbitrary dogma you were always safe,
Your existence lured me into scribbling your memoir ,
That's how the great unorthodox fantasy erupted from my core,
You know that I would be carrying Every page of your sins,
I thought we're on voyage and I am the captain of the ship,
But within few hundred days that was it,
That i was aiming for centuries,
It was craggy ending of this route heading nowhere,
Whatever you were whatever you are I did and I still care.