I know, it's in my head.

I know that,


I know that I create my own problems, and  backing pills won't solve them.

I know that the bitter tang of alcohol won't dull them anymore.

I know that.


I know that screaming and sobbing and shaking will not be taken to be the cry for help that they are.

They will only scare people away.

I know that hurting myself and eating everything in sight is a control struggle, and I need to learn to control it.

I know that.


I know that my depression is just a regression of my anxiety, and that saying things like

Well I'm going to go hang myself now haha and God I hate myself haha and just shoot me now haha

are not really funny

because they ring of truth

i know that