The thought of you circles in my mind.
The constant ticking of the watch your mother gave me ****** me off.
It's three am I haven't stayed up this late since we got together.
you always told me to go to bed.

a few months of a great relationship pass,
a new, horrible one emerges with the same person.
I tried to tell my self that its just a "rough patch"

Though you did do things for me,
still felt this was just a constant battle.

I felt like I was always fighting just to be myself.
I stopped telling you things I wanted to. 

Kissing you felt forced.
The way we touched felt alien.

Know that I don't blame you.
we brought out the worst in each other.
we brought out the monster we never thought we'd show anyone.