Another day of checking in
another day of school
I spoke to the kid that I spoke to once before
same routine day after day
***** about waking up for 20 minutes
get out of bed
shower
stare into the water stream
blinding myself
hoping ill wipe the water to see something new
get dressed
make coffee
catch the bus
40 minutes of music
school
memorize
8 hours of music or silence
catch bus
40 minutes
home
smoke
laugh
hopefully
I didn't today
the thing I call life is just a broken record
I'm 18
and life ******* *****
Please be more
Please
DONT ******* LEAVE ME HERE
on this loop of losing my ******* mind