Dear…that guy who said he knows what I am going through
(you don't)
Dear… that guy who promised not to be like the previous
(you will be)
Dear… that guy who said that my smile was all he wanted to see
(it's fake half the time)
…that guy who said that I am perfect and I have no flaws
(you are wrong)

Before you say that.. remember the guy before you said the same thing
That guy before you said how I was all he ever wanted, needed, cherished, and loved
That guy before you told me things you said but in different phrasing

Dear…that guy who wants to get to know me
(Just know that I am broken and I am hard to fix)
Dear… that guy who calls me beautiful, precious, wonderful, special
(I will deny it over and over until you get frustrated with me)
Dear.. that guy who questions why I am single
(I tend to fall for the wrong people to fast and give my all to those who don't deserve it)
..that guy who mentions how I deserve more than I was given
(I do not know what that feels like)

Before you are willing to get to know me
take the time to see the struggle that I went through
Take the time to see the broken pieces that I have in my hands
The blood that traces my finger tips from the process of picking up the pieces
The scars that were left behind because I said one word when I was told to shut up
The mental images that race through my head when one little memory hits home
The loneliness at night when I have no one to kiss my forehead and whisper “Goodnight Beautiful!”

To that guy who comes into my life next… remember it won’t be easy
You wil have to show me difference
You will have to show me respect
You will have to show me love and patience

I will push you away, I will tell you I don’t need anyone
I will cry because I feel so worthless, I will ask for constant reassurance
I will tell you to find someone else, I will tell you to prove things you don’t need to

To that guy who comes into my life next… just know it won’t be easy and I will compare you to the last.
Because I was broken by the same person who said “I love you” and “Forever and Always!” just like you are saying it to me now