I wish I could look in the mirror and be happy
But that will only be a wish because why would someone like me be happy with my appearance?
The constant dark circles around my eyes.
No it’s not from lack of sleep;
Stop saying it looks like eyeshadow.
My nose is great in size and my hair makes me look worse.
I put makeup on to cover it all; oh no, that can’t help
I’m far too ugly for anything to hide it.

I wish I was strong,
But I’m only weak;
Mentally and physically.
I want to be able to talk about defending myself and not get laughed at,
“How is that possible? Your arms are like sticks!”
“Nobody is intimidated by someone like you.”
Maybe one day you will realize how those words could hurt me.
There are some things I can’t control so stop making me think that there’s a way I can.

I wish I could help my friends understand how much they’re worth
By giving them good advice and being there for them,
But I have instinct to get jealous and pull away.
Sometimes I get so over my head
That when I realize this,
The damage has been done.
I instigate the situation
And don’t take responsibility for damage I do.

I wish I was okay with the person I’ve become
But I’m afraid that will never happen.
I don’t stick up for myself and I’m so indecisive.
There are times where I catch myself being embarrassed for some of the things I do
When I shouldn’t be at all. Why must I feel this way?
I let people control my emotions,
Which makes me say mean things that I wish I didn’t think.
I never take anything seriously
Which makes me look like an idiot.

I wish I was the person my friends see me as
But it’s only a mere wish that will never come true.