I’m hurting my self again but no one knows that, but don’t worry not because of you
I was sad before I met you
I’m just sadder now that you’ve gone
I keep hoping I’ll bump into you
But I know you probably don’t want to see me
Your too worried about you
But that’s okay I told you no one ever loves me for long
I told you it’s always me
Because I’m just an ocean that makes everyone feel seasick after too long
So I don’t blame you for leaving
But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t make me angry
That doesn’t mean I don’t cry myself to sleep every night
Gasping for air and screaming at god for letting this happen to me again
Fifth times the charm
Fifth boy to leave me
I keep hoping in ten years you’ll miss me
I keep hoping in five you’ll call
I keep hoping in three you’ll miss the world without me
I keep hoping in one you’ll regret ever leaving
I thought my story, was the plan
I thought we had plans
But I guess just you did.
Only for you
and I keep hoping in one you’ll regret ever leaving


(v.m)