I was asleep

Before me there was turmoil
There was doubt
There was anger
And repression
And judgement

There were excuses,
Denial and
Reason bending

I was asleep

I started to question
Myself
How did I let
myself down

I was asleep
Until I lost you

Now my eyes are open
To the joy
To the trust
To the gain
To what must be done

I am aware of love
And accept its shadow

I am awake