i promised myself
that i wouldn't do this.
if you gave me the chance
to take you back i would take it.

as much as i hate you
i think i will always love you.
i care in a way that means
i want the worst to happen to you.

i am working on things
like trying to forget that
you've ever spoken to me,
or trying to forget
this feeling that i'm still feeling.

no offense but i hope you're falling apart.
i hope that there is a knot
in your stomach every time
you see my grin.

i almost made you a mixtape.
i'm glad that i didn't.