breath, you seem to be running away
mind, you seem to be lost
time, oh time you've never cared
life, you seem to have forgotten me

I'm trapped, trapped in a four corned room
a empty blank walled cell
an abyss of black nothingness
a prison

my limbs are heavy but
my eyes won't close
my double-minded heart is a stone
so I'm sinking and I'm drowning
drowning with my eyes wide open
drowning with an anchor tired to my foot
drowning with my eyes wide open
for all who are wondering what it feels like to drown
well it feels like nothing
it's empty

I want to move but I have forgotten how
I want to scream but my lips are locked shut
so I let myself fall
I let myself drown,
and Maybe I deserve it
infact I know I deserve it
I was living as a shadow of a shadow of myself
not knowing if I was ever going to live beyond this shadow of a person
I've lived like this for so long it seems so endless.

This is my state of mind.

Fight they say but
fighting isn't that easy
but then again no-one ever said it was
And honestly I'm tired of fighting and being strong
why do we fight
why should we fight
why do I fight

if everything I do is worth nothing
If all of it means less than that of the life of a goldfish
then why should I,
tell me why and maybe I'll listen
maybe I'll change
stop me from breaking before I stop breathing
don't let me keep falling
grab my hand and pull me to the surface


but
you never listened, did you?
you never noticed that my heart stopped beating
never saw that I was burning
and I was drowning
And I know it makes no sense to you
but it does to me
I asked and I cried but you still let me fall
You still let me drown

breath you never came back
mind you were never found
time you never waited
life you never remembered me
no one did

even after all I've said I can't really explain to you my pain
I'm waiting for the day when I can
I'll wait to be saved