I get these bursts of want, of extreme need to be someone's something
When I see someone being somebody's someone
And
I'll feel lonely and longing and that urge to touch touch touch someone in a way I never do. I want to massage your head

and touch your ears and have you touch me and i wonder how long has it been since that happened it was so long ago i MISS it in a way i didn't 3 minutes ago
and now my head is full with it and i want nothing more but your touch and touching you

The best way I can explain it is having an addiction of sorts.
You train yourself to stop craving something
But you have a bite
and you
descend straight to hell.