It calls me closer, its calls me near
Death whispers in my ear
Irresistible is its sweet entice
Staring down, which one to slice,
I observe my previous tries
My unseen hurt and cries
No peace in my mind, no peace in my head
The quiet intelligent, long since fled
Anger and rage consumes me
My minds demons bursting to be free
The walls of my cage finally cave
"Just be you, just be ******* brave"
I slash down with a knife
"Forget this world, forget my life"
Blood oozes and drips down the drain
A slight tingle but no real pain
A calmness comes over me
My last attempt please, it's got to be
***** everyone, that's made me into this
The very same people who I'm going to ******* miss
Tears stream down my cheek,
My head feels heavy, I get dizzy and legs go weak
Then nothing.... Blankness, no sound
I feel my body drifting
I hear scraping, something's stirring around
Surrounding me, I can here creatures shifting
I hear a scream, I hear a moan
I want my family, I'm all alone
I hear a cry, I hear a sob
And realize it's my own  
No sound out my mouth, only in my mind
No one to help me, no one for me to find
I've never felt so scared....
My soul finally screamed in despair
I know i'm supposed to be a grown up
but
"I give up..."