EVERYTHING WAS UGLY AND NOTHING FELT RIGHT
AND THE BRUISES ON YOUR NECK SAID MORE THAN YOUR LIPS EVER COULD
GOD ****** YOUVE GOTTA BE KIND
AND STAY SOFT WHERE THE WORLD IS SO HARD, BABIES.
THAT'S ALL WE WERE JUST LITTLE BABIES
AND I STILL HAVENT FIGURED OUT WHAT LOVE FEELS LIKE OR IF I FELT IT
BUT GOD ******
I WISH I WAS KINDER
I WISH I WAS SOFTER
BUT I MADE EVERYTHING UGLY
AND EVERYTHING HURT
I DIDNT SEE YOUR EYES WHEN I TOLD YOU I STILL LOVED YOU
BUT OH MY GOD
I HAVE HURT YOU
I HAVE HURT YOU
AND I LOVED YOU
SO IT GOES.
SO IT GOES.
SO IT GOES.
A PART OF ME DIED WHEN YOU LEFT BUT
SO IT GOES.
I SHOULDVE BEEN CAREFUL OF WHAT I PRETENDED TO BE
BECAUSE I WAS NEVER STRONG
AND THEY TOLD ME NEVER TO LOOK BACK
BUT I WAS HUMAN SO I DID
GOD ****** I WISH I WAS KINDER
AND SOFTER
BUT WHEN THE WORLD ENDS AND I END
THE SADEST THINGS I COULD HAVE TOLD YOU IS
IT MIGHT HAVE BEEN-
SOFTER
KINDER
LOUDER
BUT I COULDNT BE KIND
I PRETENDED TO BE SOMETHING
SOMETHING I WASNT AND THATS THE TRUEST CRIME BUT
SO IT GOES.
BECAUSE NEXT TIME I WILL BE KIND,
I AM STILL JUST A BABY
BUT I WILL NO LONGER PRETEND.
I WANT EVERYTHING TO BE BEAUTIFUL AND NOTHING TO HURT
I DON'T WANT TO HURT ANYBODY ANYMORE
BECAUSE VONNEGUT SAID
"THERE IS ENOUGH LOVE IN THIS WORLD FOR EVERYBODY IF PEOPLE WILL JUST LOOK,"
AND I WANT TO BE THAT KINDNESS
I WANT TO BE THAT SOFTNESS
I WANT TO BE THAT LOVE.
GOD ******.
some day
everything will be beautiful and nothing will hurt.