You
The whitest of white
Me
The darkest of black

My mind painted you gray
Just to ruin perfection

I wondered how we fell in love
You'd say opposites attract
You being my inhale
Me being your exhale

But for you
Falling in love
Was just as easy
As falling out of love

The missed calls and ignored voicemails
Ached in my heart

So I would check
And check
For a message
That never arrived

But getting no message
Was also a message

No longer did
I believe that opposites attract

You made the jokes
I was the punchline

Maybe I still regret the pain
For all the tears you didn't see me cry
And all the cold nights
That ended in sweat

Thinking you were the spark of life
In my world of death
Or maybe the spark of death
In my life

The words I never got to say
Still sit in the back of my throat
Aching, burning
Like stale *****

I haven't purged in years
It crosses my mind
Each day
You're not here

Sometimes
I'd wish the memories could disappear
Almost as quickly as you did

Other times
I dream of us
Or what was us

Then I wake up
Mascara running down my face
Think of how you'd say opposites attract

And remember you
left
So I
write