I lost power when the storm hit At first the rain was just a Veiled rejection - not this time - so I rallied and asked for A different kind of more Anyway, with nothing to lose; They only said maybe and the full brunt Of the sucker punch Doubled me over as I hung up the phone. They might give me nothing, in the end. My work, my worth, my capital - Creates more excuses than rewards. And as for my love, my ***, my energy - The capital of my soul? You betrayed it when you let slip that My story was mere noise to you The intricate details of my path, my thoughts - The actors I have described, even the ludicrous stage they play on Just a wailing siren you tune out until it fades away And you can hand me one of the generic pacifiers You keep on hand for me But I'd rather choke today
And so I sit with my value My capital brims over, pours into the gutter Until I turn it off, switch on autopilot instead Do they not know I'm only half alive? Do you not know all this passion is for you? Not that it matters, or that they would care And since you don't need me either, I sit And I stare