I taste a flower
I immediately want to expel it
You tell me to keep it in
Swallow
You commend me
I want to throw up
I want to burn this place
I want to leave
I turn to face a portrait
Of my father
Of my mother
Of glass and metal
On a bathroom wall
I say your name and look down
The drain bubbles but reveals nothing
I scream in complete and utter belief
Because I know who you are
I say your name and look up
The vents rattle but nothing comes out
I say "of course" and throw myself on the floor
Because I know what you are
I say your name and look down
The ground shakes
I feel your name rattle the earth
I always knew who you were
I disregard my reputation and inhale you
Your breath is the color on my cheeks
The color on my eyes
The color of an almost dark sky
The color of you
I say your name and turn around
A shadow flickers
Flowers spill off the edge
I catch only one and start to scream
I throw it at the chasm
It spins as it floats toward the unknown
I cry your name and look down