Its a Friday night And I chose to come relish in my last moments In this little but yet so big Room thats fully taken on so much.
I think back on it now With that sweet nostalgia I get so deeply caught up in With earnest masochism And the innate desire To keep kicking up my heels And get my **** together I seem to echo in tandem With those that pick and seek Simplistic but belting desires From me And really, the not so little Or big I have to give.
This time last year A great betrayal occurred I'll never forget my hysteria over the phone That was not my own I called you in such a panic My darling, I didn't mean for that to happen Pacing in West Avondale I had to go be on set in a matter of minutes And I wept, for fear I had ruined What I thought might be us.
And I find myself standing now In little bo-peep pink with a glass of white wine in my hand My soon to not be room mate seems disheartened That everyone already knows me And we jest but really we mean it and say He's clearly Just so gay.
I had a little tick in the pit of my stomach Papa and I got so sweaty in the hot sun A new bright, brave, strong man Wraps his arm around me amid what we think to be Honeysuckles and he teaches me a thing or two About what I know But he brings a new sense of wisdom And I cutely tell him I like your brain.
I decided to stay away tonight After much debate Its my last moments here after all 4 different parties to attend I say no thank you to them all Tonight Burn some sage Make sure I'm ready But you're never fully ready
But I stare out my new windows Am greeted in the elevator Buy some cute bar stools Mama told me to walk away And never look back.
I paced in a long blue dress The night before Black Felt so alive to be everyone's ***** on a film set And now its me who gives the orders.