Where’d you go? Were you ever really there? I saw you infrequently Because you worked nights And ****** strange women during the day I knew at 6 years old I was almost nothing to you An excuse to visit that girl At the ice cream parlor Mom left Because you couldn’t even be A father Much less a husband How much I mourned The loss of you How many times Did I cry myself to sleep? No more tears left to give Not just you Mom too Because you two were both ****** up You didn’t know any better At least I did At least I waited Waited until I was ready Ready to be a father To commit myself To raising children The park The sports The things we do To give them good memories Of us And when you died I could not cry I could not shed a tear For the loss of you Once again I had lost you too many times before No more tears left to give Maybe someday I’ll cry For you Right now my eyes are dry For you I have no more tears left to give