Hazy bright glazed over sunshine Taping new post cards to my wall Roll out of bed like theres so much to be done Never having a minute, never having a minute But you all have to understand I did what I did because I had to.
Got guilt breathing down my neck tonight Wishing things could have been different My room mate lamented last night "I wish you had never of met him." We chime and we sing in the warmest of voices I wish I hadn't either.
Not really sure what the purpose was Why I had to get burnt so badly for about the 5th time I cross off more numbers in blueberry ink I don't text The Wolf today Because I'm so unavailable.
Mama keeps repeatin' and repeatin' how much I look like my Grandmother It brings her such joy There was a time I felt the same But lately, so much lately I just wanna be me.
I don't have anything new to say Listening to words for hours on end Increased empathy, love I roll and I roll Out of apartment, it felt so cold when I got home I wonder why or why Why, he hasn't shared the beauty I wrote I don't really expect profound responses back.
I need 6 months, thats it I try to exclaim and make the others understand I wish I hadn't gotten pummeled the first year.
But I've learned so much I've grown so much As pictures of my first love in Philadelphia circuit the internet I think of how horrible he was to and for me He can't really be that much better I remember the rage hidden in that handsome face Behind perfectly cooked meals and vintage clothes I've gained and I've lost I've gained and I've lost.
I can't wait to see pictures of you and not care.
"He's still in love with you" I'm told in the car on the way to parties I don't care. I don't care. I don't care Because you couldn't stand next to me.
I think about you a lot tonight I listened to a song that once brought me such hope I don't know when I'll be in love again And it doesn't matter what the context for you anymore is
Because it just doesn't matter I did all I could do I've led with nothing but love And if you are embarrassed, ok And if you are sick, ok And if you are saddened, ok And if you are angry, ok And if you are still in love