The words I wanted to say didn't come out
I smile and gaze into your eyes – unsure
Unsure if you feel the same
– tensions are high – the silence unbearable
I have to say it . . . but should I wait . . .
You're waiting for the words to come
I wanted to wait and have this conversation later
But here we are
         On your bed again
                       And my mind's gone blank
                                 "Use your words!"

Okay . . Here we go . . .
This is happening now!
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Was it really that hard?
– I still felt I could have said it better –
But she really doesn't care, care that I made no sense . .
She's still pleased with me – Even though I'm beating myself up for rambling, saying nothing for 10 min., I didn't really say nothing – but it wasn't eloquent!

I should stop thinking out loud.
   Do that beforehand . . .
   Anxiety has melted away – now she's in my arms
            Soon enough I'll tell her, give it time . . .