What will it take For me to Erase the memory of your defeated eyes From my mind "Its is no longer your responsibility" A catalyst of strong women Whisper and soothe All around me.
I wish I had known better I wish I had not lost sight of myself As you create barriers, shields, and oceans Between us I guess your soul and heart Must really ache. But I have done all I can do.
I have to cut the slices of my mind away That start to drip and tick with worry Paranoid, 8 people turn in unison Asking, waiting, talking Such non-stop pecking I let myself breathe out As a few pat me on the back My face looks so tired I dream so deeply and vividly of my past Curl into my bed happy To be without you But oh, the repercussions For things I never really did Or meant to do.
I wish I could light a match And burn that orange sweater on fire I wish I could switch back time And take you for what you just were I wish I had known better.
But I didn't And I couldn't And as much as I have to play games with my mind To keep you at bay Its 8 people that really make me stay away Without even meaning to.
But I release it into the very blue sky I wonder if you feel happier without me I know you wonder the same Perhaps in time Perhaps in time But that day is just not today.
I think back on all I've done All I've seen As I barely have a moment Men open doors and chase me down But I know the right one Has yet to take a seat in front of me.
But I play And I wear and shred wedding dresses Forget whatever heaven is You were never going to be What you could be.
Eyes heavy I remove memories and lies From the shattered places of my mind And sweat and dance it away There is nothing more I can do.