I've always been mature for my age,
An old soul one might say.

But for some reason I can't deal with my insecurities
With much maturity.

I'm a size 16,
Staying in that same range.

I don't go up, I don't go down,
I've been 197 for as long as I can remember.

I never feel insecure,
Except when someone points it out.

My boyfriend is hot,
I'm not.

He works out,
He's very fit.

I laze around,
And watch TV.

So when he goes to the beach with his friends and lacrosse playing girls, I feel very jealous.

I trust he won't make a move,
But I don't trust the girls with curves and bikinis.

I'm not like them.
Not fit, not thin.
I am 197 pound me.