It began in a hospital room
They screamed at me through the darkness
Do you want to live or die?
I said I wanted to live but the light I saw ahead seemed to beacon me with it's peacefulness
And I can hear my mother crying on the phone "is she going to make it? do they know?"
But I went home that morning
The deafening silence in the car
The thoughts in my head screaming "*******, *******, *******"
They'll really hate me now
And in my school I felt the stares that whispered softly
Don't come here, not again
But baby we both got blood on our sleeves
The only difference is what we believe
Because I've been reduced to a cage
Pulling and pushing my emotions to other corners of my mind
Way too far for me to find them
And we both know that's why I died, and we both know that's how you lived
If I cry will they think I'm weird?
If I scream will they think I'm crazy?
But god, But god can you hear me now?
I'm screaming to you now
Show me a sign or let me go
Because I didn't see you when I was flat lining on a pillow
And I don't understand why you let him leave
God, God. God, I couldn't ******* breathe!
And it seems as though you decided to leave!
Or did you forget you left me here?
Like my mom when I was thirteen
And I begged you both not to go
Because I need guidance, and I need someone to talk to at night
I need someone to pat my back and say I've done alright
I need someone to put the meaning in my life!
Or am I just here to fill a space, to reproduce and then be replaced?
When I really think back, back to when I died
It wouldn't have made much difference
Because everyone drive away from a funeral
Oh my god, oh my god, just make someone stay!