Raised to be seen and not heard,
free voice broken.
Learn what should and could be said,
or never spoken.
Who decides the acceptable to discuss,
or what creates a societal ruckus?
Beaten down over my years experience
traveled.
Words locked away in my head,
leave my soul unraveled.
Interpretations of the dark vs light,
Only I know what haunts me at night.
Who determines what strength and weakness I do value
Hold close my past that creates me honest and true.
Molested, arrested, *****, adandoned and battered
Homeless dropout, a ******, suicidal when life no longer mattered.
A smoker, a drinker, numb cutter for pain,
Tattooed and pierced, lay in front of a train.
Hit the bottom hard as stone,
call it the top, yet all alone.
Wanting so much more, feeling worth much less.
Until I face myself, only to me do I need to confess.
Rise up off the street,
forcing the ends to meet.
Make humble amends,
with lost family and friends.
Get a job, a career, new education,
Ever move forward despite trepidation.
Find true loves, each better than the last,
Accept better life hoping the worst has passed.
Never forget though, these vengeful demons in my life,
or they creep up behind me, stealthy slash of a knife.
Now open my mouth for the words to spill,
Vow never again silent, lest my soul be still.