I’m drowning beneath a wave
A wave no one can see and only I can feel.
I feel me sinking into its depths
Being crushed under its pressure.
There’s a noose around my neck
A noose no one can see and only I can feel.
I feel the support being ripped from underneath me
And a rope that chokes the life from me.
There’s a knife on my wrist
A knife no one can see and only I can feel
I feel its blade carving into my arm
As my lifeless blood spills into the sink.
This air is too thick, there’s a hole in my lungs
This silence is the most deafening thing you’ll hear
Am I making it obvious enough that I need help?
Or are you just that blind?
There’s a gun in my mouth
And it’s very much real
I don’t want to do this
But I can’t stop myself.
I’m screaming inside for You to save me
Words that can’t make it to my mouth.
Would You rush in and save me from myself
From something that is not myself.
Can you feel my spirit tug at Your heart
Begging You to read my thoughts
To know the darkest part of me
That no one can see and only I can feel
So You can slowly help me heal.