there is a diamond in the sky which i stare at.. asking the heavens to send me an informant.. a lingering soul that can guide me to experience moments so my mind wont stay so dormant.. time and again i have tried to touch that diamond in the sky.. to help me learn how to subside this battle cry.. to soften my hardening heart so i may learn to fly.. to create a reality that no amount of gold can buy.. but then again, i have never been able to reach this diamond in the sky.. my thoughts are shrouded with the clouds blinding my sight so i wont see this diamond shining in the sky.. i make a track spin and read a magazine.. but i get lost with the sound of this magdalene.. and while i prepare to light this green, i remember why this became my gasoline.. now im trying to change what ive seen.. go to to places that ive never been.. but i always end up standing, watching from where im standing.. taking each step without fear nor without looking.. feeling my way through these streets, full of color and vigor.. full of violence, strife, and pain.. the people up top has changed how they leave their stain.. leaving us in doubt and disdain.. where do i go from here? for my diamond in the sky never took my claim.. leaving stars shining to create a ripple of broken dreams and frozen chains to distract us from who we really can be.. cant you see? that those stars can never set us free.. we are trapped in a box with metal bars and broken mirrors so i will never be able to find the true me.. memories are now just passing waves in my head.. tides that sometimes wont let go till i bleed to feed this need to be freed.. my dreams now seem so far away just cause of how i arranged this deed.. never have i agreed to sign this creed.. to be locked, blinded and deafened by silence and zero tolerance.. all thats left for me is my defiance.. to keep my humility without having any vengeance.. lets give love a chance and let go of fear in advance.. let life not be a hindrance.. cause no matter what we do or where we go, we will always learn forgiveness by holding their hands.. happiness is a choice.. a choice between just thinking it or using our voice.. soon we shall all rejoice.. giving forgiveness and love to others by choice.. not by chance nor by accident.. we are free.. cause what we want and what we need is what we always see..

pauldeeeeee
11may2011