all that i want and all that i truly need is to be reawakened for things to be the way they once were i try hard as **** to not dwell on the past it's such a bright place that i don't want to leave, but i should because it missed its chance to grow with me it has faded and become lazy, only showing itself in dim flickers that hold the heat of a single match when it used to be a steady glow that surrounded me always i need you to help it catch up to me bring back your light, your tenderness and laughter because i've grown so dark and hardened to the point where i am contained inside a thick shell i used to be able to break out and shake off the pieces easily, but layers keep accumulating and i feel cold as a stone in the bed of a river only something as forceful as a chisel and hammer could free me, but that's not enough only something as warm as the way things were could melt me but most of all, i need to know that you need this too i've been dying to reach you