as i lay awake at night,
thoughts come crawling through my mind,
thoughts of the one and only you.

some are confusing,
some are a lie,
and some are truthful in a way.

i keep our memories,
protected by my heart,
locked away,
safe in steal.

when i let you in,
i'm soon to push you away,
frightened to lose you,
careful to keep my distance,
yet long for you to stay always......

i can tell your giving up,
it's not easy for me to accept,
i know it's my fault,
i know i've changed,
i know what i gotta do to fix things.......

i'm just a child,
nothing more and nothing less,
i need you here,
now and forever,
i need my friend.....

but it's obvious you don't want to be my friend....

i'm cool with that,
just give me the chance to say bye......

i thought we were friends forever
what happened?????

soon my confusion will come to an end,
leaving me with ever lasting pain,
no understanding,
and to only be what you will leave,
a heart full of sorrow,
a girl crying on her knees.