A symbol of innocence wasted
On you when I should've waited
But in the moment I didn't care
I just felt comfortable there
No voices saying I fat or ugly
Just hands that would feel me
A mouth that brought me release
A body I could only try to please
By submission I could be enough
Even for a moment I had his love
Or some semblance of affection
To spare me my mental afflictions
The irony of this illusion I trust
Is the clear reality of our lust