I sometimes wonder if she hears his voice when she talks to me
When I tell her “I love you”
does she hear his voice
is this why she sounds so afraid when she says it back
When I hold her, I can feel her shaking
is it because she’s still cold since his warmth left her
She’s so afraid to open up to me
she never tells me how she actually feels
instead, she’ll say “everything’s fine” and she’ll kiss my cheek
with a faint smile
I sometimes wonder if she hears his voice when she speaks to me
when I say “I’ll be back”
she becomes paranoid
she thinks I’ll never return to her like he did
so she begs me to stay a while longer
and I because I love her so
When she’s sad
I try to comfort her to the best of my ability
but she won’t even look at me
she stares off into the distance
I sometimes wonder if she’s still looking for him
and when I say “I love you”
I wonder if she has to force herself to say it back