I'm tired of hiding
I'm sick of shying away
From things I want to say

Stuck the blade in my teeth
Made the gap that they see
Cut the thread from my mouth
Let these words out of me

Every single aspect of my life is a mess
My bed room floor is dressed in elaborate patterns and textures,
Even my own car is weighed down by my soft caress

my life is a mess

This is something you have never known,
the terror of being on your own

It's like you said
sometimes I just wish I was dead
but, I'll take sleep instead
good nigh my friend
we'll be lead to the end
through life
we must strive for more
lifes not a war
it's a struggle
now that to the core

Loud conversations
dragged my mom out of her room
to tell me I'd have to clean any mess I made

So we quieted down
and he left me

I had a smile that wouldn't wear out
a heart that wouldn't stop
yet, I had another to hold the place

Clean this mess she said
but, didn't know I put myself in it

I had lost it for a devil in disguise
I had lost it for a diamond in the sky
I had lost it for the sun in your eyes

Wretched spit
Separate the disc
Elated smiles
That end on this
A kiss dismissed with a fist
Twists and turns
Twists the yearn
I need the burn
Wretched stick
Insert the tip
To end the sick

i love the taste of wine on my tongue
like i love the brush on a fresh canvas
from the white comes the *dark