PJ - Hello Poetry

PJ Feb 2014

This is a really hard pill to swallow
Swallowing ******* my unspoken words
But I let another person yell at me
Just to tell me I am
Worthless, but the other girls
Don't have this problem, so maybe
He's right

I hate the word **** because
Actions don't define me
If you have words you want to say, please
Whisper them, because everyone knows how closely
I will listen and believe what you
Say, but you will continue to yell at me and
Tell me all the worst
Things about myself and
I will continue to change who I am
From the inside, out

old draft

PJ Jan 2014

Ingrid

My feelings are
Nipping at the heels of
My thoughts, which are
Nipping at the
Heels of my actions
And

I've never felt
So

Strange

In a race
Only with

Myself,
It's dragging on

Forever

waiting for the right time to come out
only thing stopping me is me

PJ Dec 2013

Eighteen

Growing up is making me anxious because
I'm not ready to be an adult when
I still fear like a child with my flashlight
Under the covers

At what age does my blanket in a dark room
No longer protect me from the
Monsters I cannot see?

PJ Dec 2013

The Sadness in Glass Houses

People say
Don't throw stones
If you live in a glass house,
But maybe the lesson should be
Don't throw stones, especially
At glass houses

PJ Nov 2013

My Impact

If people really are like grenades waiting to
Explode, I don't think I have anyone
That is close enough to hurt,
Helping sounds more
Accurate when your friends are
Far and the grenade is
Weak.

inspired by john green's book "the fault in our stars"