If A loves B
B loves C
C loves D
And D loves A

Maybe they don't understand and they're always confused but they all know what does it exactly mean when you're strong with the one who loves you and weak with the one you love ..

And they'll always find an excuse when there is not ..

Yes i'm conscious ..
Yes she's there ..
Laying her back on the car ..
Looking at the phone ..
She didnt change ..
Beautiful as i used to see her ..
Thought many times before going towards her ..
Suddenly im beside her ..
Without even knowing what happened or how i did that ..
She was surprised ..
Her eyes were happy too ..
That shake hand
Was like loving my hands
It was strong like asking for help ..
I just wanted to keep holding this hand ..
Nothing can help me to say how much i do miss this skin and this touch ..
She had to leave ..
She did it again ..
More stronger ..
Asking for more help ..
What's supposed to happen after this is what i really don't know ..
Her touch was enough ..
And nothing could be fixed ..
I will just enjoy this dose until having another ..
Up until then , I'm fine .

You better run , I was here to make you fall only to not catch you in the end ..

"That’s the down side of falling in love with me - I never know what I want and will blame you for my indecisiveness."

I pretended to feel the same way and i can never call you mine ..
I lied to your eyes ..

You see, in those times, when they used to smile at me and they were exactly the same eyes that used to look at me like I was your favourite person ..
I'll remember the look in your eyes, the way you struggled to form a sentence ..

I shouldn't be making excuses, I should have remembered that you don't do that anymore.

Now you're okay ..
Now you're away ..
I was going to do nothing but poison everything you once thought you loved

It's sad how the things go like this today ..
I've thought about it hundered times ..
The words that should be said ..
Before reaching this pointless point ..
Time won't always heal your pain ..
Sometimes , the pain will always haunt you ..
Listen to my unspoken words ..
Hear my unheared scream ..
Stare at my eyes and you'll find the answer ..
It's sad how the things go like this today ..
This pain inside your chest , i feel it ..
This pain that lead you to carziness ..
This craziness that i can handle ..
It's me , It's your home where you're always safe ..
I will be there away and you'll replace me hundered times ..
Until you realise that no one can handle you but me ..
Not because you're hard to handle but because it's me , it's your home where you're always safe ..
I will be there away and you'll comeback ..
Until then , i will be in another place where i didn't use to be in ..

I will be

In the corner of your eyes

And you'll always look at me

*stealthily

You know, I can feel the fear that you carry around and I wish there was ... something I could do to help you ..

You know , I can feel the way you want me so much .. as much as i want you ..

Do you know how much does it hurt to see you afraid when i have nothing left to make you feel safe ?

Tell me that's not my fault again and again and I'll nod my head like the doll I should be .. I will smile the way you want me to .. I will close your eyes to never make you see what may hurts .. I will hold your hand to make you never hesitate .. I will hug you so tight , whispering that everything will be okay when it's not .. I'll give you everything i've ever got ..
And when there's nothing left inside to be given , don't stare at my eyes and make me feel that i'm not enough to you ..

Because i know ..

And finally you will have no other option but to loathe me ..

I wonder if my God is listening to me right now
I wonder if he listens to the whole prayers 
I wonder why did he give me a brain that can't handle the truth .. 
A brain that is lost in the darkness .. 
A brain doesn't really know what's the point .. 
A brain knows the equation but doesn't know the answer .. 
All the roads lead to death .. 
And the more i know the more i feel bad ..
I feel lost .. 
And if i dont deserve the answer ..
Why do i deserve the question ?