It's better to play this track while reading .

https://soundcloud.com/ellen-jewett-violin/transfigured-night­-schoenberg

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It was when i held that paper and read your name ..  

Next to another man ..  

Seeing that you're not mine anymore ..  

And believing that's not my name ..  

Not my wedding ..  

And this is only an invitation ..  

An invitation for me ..

Finally i receive what i thought i'll day send ..  

She invites me ..  
  
To see her eyes showing love but not to me ..  

To feel her happiness but not because of me ..

And to believe that every single thing she has will be for him and not for me ..

A day to know that everything is done ..  

And the place i thought was day mine is not mine anymore ..  

But i'm strong enough to accept this invitation ..  

Strong enough to go and see ..  

Strong enough to hide my broken side ..  

Strong enough to see her happy without me ..  

Strong strong strong ..  

Then everything went wrong ..  

When i saw her eyes ..  

And stared ..  

Then i took my broken steps to that corner ..  

To that seat ..  

Where she wouldn't be able to see me ..  

And she's next to him ..  

Holding his hands ..  

And every single second kills me ..  

Kills every single memory for her ..  

Kills every single feeling for her ..  

Kills every single thing that is still alive because of her ..  

It's hard to become a grave for these things ..  

But i can't let lies live inside ..

I wish if i could hold your hands now and leave ..  

One more single night ..  

Without hearing your questions ..  

Without telling you my answers ..  

Without your blame and without my reasons ..  

Before this day comes ..  

Why didn't we give one more chance to our love to fix it all ..  

Why did we become too late to fix anything ..  

But now i'm good ..  

I'm good ..  

Good enough to stand up and leave ..  

Maybe there's something you've got ..  

Maybe there's something i've lost ..  

Maybe you're happy or maybe you're not ..

Shame on me ..  

Shame on you ..  

Baby we've failed ..  

Yes we've failed ..  

And now ..

Let life take us to where it goes ..  

To anywhere ..

To nowhere ..

**Goodbye

The concert was about to finish ..

And now it's her turn ..

With her instrument ..

With her golden saxophone ..

The lights were diminished ..

And she started playing her favorite musical note ..

With her heart that is full of feelings ..

And her closed eyes ..

In her special world ..

The air goes out from her lungs softly like tears ..

And the great audience feels every tone ..

She doesn’t see them ..

She doesn’t hear their clap ..

Only his soul that is around ..

And Only his voice that is heard ..

Then his beautiful smile ..

With tears in his eyes , He said ''You're the best''

Then she looked at her saxophone ..

And remembered years ago ..

At one of their nights ..

During one of their phone calls ..

- You know babe , I adore the Saxophone ..

- Really ?

- Yeah , it's my favorite instrument ..

- Hold on ..

- What's this noise around you ?

- Nothing just my family ..

- Hmmm , didn't they sleep ?

- No , gonna call you after sometime ..

- Ok no problem ..

And after sometime he called her back ..

- Now tell me what will you do when you get a saxophone ..

- Haha , I really don't know but I've never thought about having one before ..

As they used to do , He started telling her a story before sleeping ..

She doesn't care about any stories ..

She just loves listening to his voice ..

She stays silent ..

To listen and feel ..

Every single word ..

And while listening , The call was over ..

She did a call again and again ..

No answer ..

She called his home ..

No answer ..

Again and again ..

No answer ..

The phone was ringing away from his sleeping house ..

Without his family noise that didn't exist ..

Among a lot of people ..

In his crushed car ..

Between his dead body ..

And

*That New Golden Saxophone

What would you feel and what would you do ..

What would you say and what would you try to undo ..

If today is your last day ..

If your words are your last say ..

If your life ends tonight ..

Imagine this night !

Will you start the earthly delights ..

Or you'll just start desperate fights ..

between your evil soul and your soul of lights ..

Would you think about committing suicide ..

Because of the pain you can't hide ..

and because of the sorrows you can't slide ..

Is that how you want to end your life ?

Are you an evil person with no pure soul and no guard ..

A guard to save you and care for you ..

That person that can make your life the best ..

But you will still be that evil person ..

Like a broken vase in need of some glue ..

Like a tired detective in need of clue ..

Because you're about to die today ..

You're confused and You're not sure if you want to astray ..

But your sane soul could lift up its gaze and whisper to you ..

Telling you that God's way is the best avenue you can ever choose ..

Are you going to hesitate this time ?

Are you going to decline ?

No , You can't decline this way ..

You have to be righteous still ..

And Justice still...Just take a deep breath and Chill ..

Close your eyes , Pray to God ..

No matter what  ..

The god is forgiving ..

You aren't ready for the moment of truth ..

The moment of recalling and faith ..

The moment you wish you did better in life ..

imagine what they will do ..

Will they cry ..

Will they have a chance to say at least goodbye ..

Will they feel that it's just a lie ..

Will they wish you come again ..

Will they feel the real pain ..

Will they remember everything you did ..

Will they feel your soul lying on the bed ..

Will your picture stay forever in their head ..

Will tears run in their eyes ..

Will they stop believing their lies ..

Will something change !

No time to try ..

No time to regret ..

Now there's nothing you get ..

Think of how different it would be if today isn’t your last day ..

I know it’s too late ..

Too late to book a place ..

Too late to leave everywhere a trace of your smile and your face ..

After all of that ..

Imagine if today is not your last day ..

What would you say ?

It doesn’t matter today or tomorrow ..

It doesn’t matter now or later ..

Maybe ''today is your last day'' was a lie ..

Maybe you still can try ..

Maybe you can prepare yourself to never say again '' why ??



Here or there ..

Today or tomorrow ..

Now or later..

**You will die ..

I've decided to be happy and never be sad ..

Love that good and love that bad ..

Here you're my hand ..

Hold it and stand ..

Understand !

Let's go out ..

A lot of things we've to care about ..

Ourselves , our souls and who's around ..

Let's rise from ground ..

It's never the last round ..

Run ..

Be a sun ..

Never fall ..

Love them all ..

And stay happy ..

Please stay ..

Yes today ..

And for more one day ..

Don't delay ..

The time to say ..

"I'm happy" (scream)

Do you feel the pain ?!

Ok . Let's be happy again (: