The Noose

The Noose Jan 2022

Untitled March 2018

I know you when you delicately stitch the fragments of your unbecoming
When everyone else is reaching is reaching for the sun
I know you when you ache to swallow it
When you rip through yourself
Searching for the skeleton key
That will quieten the longing
The cure
Vague, elusive
I know you when your love is sacrificial, ******, clingy but real.

written in March 2018

#becoming #strong

The Noose Jan 2022

Perpetuate July 2013

I want to spill my head all
over a busy street corner
and violently expose my
actual self as what I am
and what I chose to
perpetuate

Written in july 2013 under the alias "ride the spiral"

The Noose Jan 2022

embroiled

mama forgive me
I am late
staggering
my way
I am embroiled
in the widening bruise
time creeps by
my blood, anxious
the will to be is.

The Noose May 2021

Our Lily

In waning threads of light
The shadow of
Our lily burgeons
That howling wind
takes everything
But
She's easy on the eyes
When the time comes
She'll have the heart.

The Noose Nov 2020

Embroiled still

I am in the city you hated
In the guts of the very land
which made you tremble
I am in the center of the bruise,
still
Embroiled
by and by
It is bursting, heavy
My eyes are falling.

The Noose Jun 2020

Release

there was pain
fear
in your bones
that which gnawed at you
in the
belly of the night
the lord
had to take you away.

The Noose May 2020

The quiet shattering of memory

I said I wanted to remember you
Well then
if I remember you
Just as you were
in photographs
Your face like so
So clear and vivid
I want to remember you
I want to forget the pain
You are not there
Anymore
I know of the heavy
That which
sits inside my being
I will break

Written atop the gulf of Eden