im still trying to figure out if you love me or not
you tell me you do
but is it true?

Do you think about me the way i do every second on the day?
i cant even focus in school
my grades are low because of you
and i cant help it
i just want to burst into tears for many reasons
1. knowing that you live so far away
2. that were still young
3. i think i shouldn't love you
and 4. of course do you love me?

you call me bby
but am i really that to you
or are you just playing with my emotions ?

I honestly cant even explain how i feel
not even in this poem

He bruised her
Leaving her on the tip of the mountain
To fall
He left her to die
He forgot about her
He didn't love her face nor her smile
He used her
Abused her
Manipulated her
He nearly killed her
But she won’t leave
She loves the fake morning kiss
The feel of his 6 pack  
The feel of his chest
When her head is laying on it………..
“Get off of me “ he said
She got up and ran leaving behind a trail…
A river
A river of the same tears that she cried to many times
The tears are gone now
It’s none left
He used all the tears that she ever had….

She said that’s enough
You’ll regret everything you ever did….
“Remember, what goes around comes around” she said
“Shut up” he said
You took my heart
and I’ll take yours
You took my mind
I’ll make you lose yours
You took my life
And I will take yours
Now look at your blood dripping from your scar that’s similar to mines
Your blood leaving a path to wear your heart is
After I follow my path of blood to find my heart
I’ll think about letting you have yours back
This isn't even 1 cm of how I felt
I’m not done yet
~nlj

Sitting* here as the tears haste down my cheeks on to the wooden floor
the frigid floor froze my tear
watching the tear drop reminded me of your hair
when it drops down to your back when you take your ponytail out
your long unending alluring hair.
I wonder what it feels like if my fingers are combing  through it
I ponder on what it will look like when i see you
if i ever  do.
The tears
still dripping down my face
When will they stop?
when i  see your  seductive smile  
when i see your seducing face in person
just my eyes and yours .
This moment will come
One day, i know it will...
Looking at your pictures i say how beautiful you are to myself
I told Jade i think i love you
but the think went away
I do.
You tell me you love me
I say it back.
I don't tell people i love them if I really don't
Love is a strong word
Just Like Hate.
but hate will never be towards you
your far from hate..
Our text messages.
I look over them ,
only you now why...

The meaning of your name:
a clear, brilliant glass
clear like your mind is on irrelevant things
or the negative words that i'm sure came at you .
Brilliant Glass ?
the brilliant glass of you is your personality.
its effervescent.
Your laugh .
I love the sound of it.
I make you laugh just  to hear the intonation of it.
Me still using up all my tears.
Oh wait there endless
so i can continue to cry everyday right?
Its nothing else i can really say but i really love you.
**-nlj