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Nameless Nov 2013
A mother
An idol
One for everyone

Why don't I have one
She's the reason
I was born
but
that's it
You don't love me
Have you the smallest idea
what I do to myself?
No you don't
You're the reason I do it
But you don't even know
Some mother
you are
The lies
The pain
The agony you cause me
yet you don't know

You pick your friends
Not your family
Why was I
Stuck with you?
Did I do something
To deserve this?
Well I am paying for it

You tell me I ****
I'm not worth it
just leave

Maybe those words hurt
But you
you wouldn't know

You may be my parental Figure
but you will never
ever
be my mom
Nameless Nov 2013
Drops of water
Drops of rain
Drops of blood
Drops of pain

Streams everywhere
Isolated
Connected
Colors of boldness
Piercing the eye

Rivers of blood
they may be called
Your river of blood
Has turned into a flood

Drops of water
Drops of rain
Drops of blood
Drops of pain
Nameless Nov 2013
You're in a boat
Everyone is in a boat
A little boat
Floating
In the middle of the ocean
No one knows what ocean it is
All everyone knows is

I'm in a boat

However
Your boat is different
While everyone is floating
carelessly
You hold a string in one hand
And a chain in the other
A string full of balloons
And a chain with an anchor
You hold tightly
Because
If you let go of the balloons
You will get pulled under
And
If you let go of the anchor
You will get pulled away

It's a fight
Only you participate in
Because everyone else
Just floats

But
What if this fight
Is a beautiful thing
No one else gets to experience
What's under the sea
or off the water
What would your life be like
Without these balloons
and this anchor

You look around you
Don't these people get bored?
They just sit
As for me
My arms are getting a lot stronger
Nameless Nov 2013
You're told that everyone is different
It's okay to be different
But if everyone is different
wouldn't that mean
that everyone is the same?

You not so different
You're more than that
Like some sort of
Uncommon difference

There's different
and then
there's you.
You are
the uncommon difference

Stop hurting yourself
It's gonna be okay
But is it really?
You're all alone

Will you benefit from this?
Is it like a class
A lesson to be learned
Maybe
But you don't know
You can't see your future

Is this going to end happy
Or just end
Just like that
You're dead

No one knows
Because
You're not different
You're
The Uncommon Difference
Nameless Nov 2013
Let's go back
To when things were better
You don't think that something like this is going to happen to you
You think that you're normal
You thing that you're in control
But you're not
And you begin to realize it
Once you figure it out
You start to question yourself
Why me?
Why am I so dumb?
Why am I so different?
Why am I so ugly?
It's a constant argument
Between you and yourself
You walk into your bathroom
You lock the door
You're alone
On your own
Just you
You stand there like an idiot
Ripping open your skin
You think
Why am I doing this?
What is the point?
God I'm dumb
That stupid voice in your head
Asking you why your tearing your flesh
That constant argument
Between you and yourself
But after awhile
That voice fades away
Theres no one
No one is talking you you anymore
No one asking you why you are doing this
So you just do it
No emotion
Just you
Just your blade
Just your skin
Just your blood
What's wrong with that?
Nothing it seems
You hate your family
Your family hates you
You lock your bathroom door again
Why am I hated?
Does anyone actually like me?
No
No one
It's just me
You see all those blue veins in your wrists
Someone tells you
Don't cut those
But after awhile
That voice goes away
Maybe I actually should hit those blue things
Will I get hurt?
Will I die?
I don't care
No one does
I'm fat and ugly anyways
Who would want me?
No one
I kind of want to die
You say
It wouldn't really matter
You are at school
You look at the others
They are all so small
So beautiful
Why am I so big?
Maybe I should stop eating
Food is like poison
All it does is make you ugly
Stay away from that
I want to get smaller
Did you eat today?
What the hell were you thinking?
Your wrists are gonna bleed like crazy tonight
And it's your fault
You're doing this to yourself
Idiot
Maybe you should just throw up
That will make you feel better
Don't you want to get skinny?
Yeah
You do
Throw up
While you do that
Go cut yourself
There
Thats better
Stop feeling bad for yourself
Stop being so sad
You have a house
A bed
A life
Others would **** to be you
Well why do I hate myself so much?
Because you're stupid
Just stop
No one wants you here anyways
It's that constant argument
Between you and yourself

— The End —