The cards were dealt.
Swiftly.
A world ripped apart.
It's just me.
I close my eyes.
She's all I see.
In my minds eye,
she's still with me.
Heartbreak.
Deep, shattering, soul splitting sorrow.
Here today.
Gone tomorrow.

I wander through life
like an arrow shot from a god's bow.
Penetrating the dark,
stealing the night away.
Like a thief.
This cold brilliance is my mind.
This unfettered heart is my soul.

Awake, to the tragedy outside my door.
Pained, hungry, hopeless hearts surround me.
All I have to offer is my voice.
My words.
In a futile hopefulness.
Wishing it all away.

Do you see the tears raining down like a summers storm?
The flood of sorrow that surrounds these souls..?

Are you blind?

wanting
waiting
my patience is fading
deceiving
achieving
my every desire
behind you
inside you
i set you on fire
i'm sweating
you're bleeding
this all was misleading.

The blackness of night
swallows me whole.
dark and empty,
Just like my soul.
Moonless skies
leave unseeing eyes...
your cold hands are gripping me.
***** and dark,
your earthly smell.
Fingers dug deep,
come to drag me to hell.
Twisting and turning,
my flesh begins burning.
I open my mouth to scream..
Cry out in pain,
every night is the same.
Wake up.
It's only a dream.

Shadows on my weary head.
Dreams are gone,
Long since dead.
Nighttime brings the the shadow stronger,
an empty bed,
an unfed hunger.
Ten months time has come and gone.
But dreams of you still come along.

so many faces,
so many names....
so many worries,
living this way.
so many hopes..
so many dreams..
so many changes,
but its all still the same.
so many questions..
with answers that bring pain.
so many first times.
i'll have to start again.

can I makes things different?
old habits hard to break.
seems I just keep makin..
all the same mistakes.

so many pieces
to pick up and replace.
so many memories.
every time I see your face.

so many excuses..
told in every way.
so many chances..
now you've gone away.

so can I make things different?
once i've learned from my mistakes.
does it even matter?
its a chance i'll have to take.

just a chance i'll have to take.
just a chance i'll have to take.

you knew what I was from the start.
your words burn thru my heart,
somethings better left untold..
pardon my being so bold..
but how can you be so cold..?

I remember better days..
before you went away,
begged you to stay...
you'd only have your way..

so if I may be so bold,
the speed things got so old..
how can you be so cold..?

yes there were problems..
and yes there were flaws..
and sure there was drama..
we even put things on pause..

but after things went on hold..
and the love had been sold..
how can you be so cold..?

i've shed my last tear..
been one hell of a year..
cried so many nights..
fought so many fights...

after all is said and done..
and two have become one..
all thats left to unfold..
you were something to behold..
so how can you be so cold..?