time does funny things
it teaches you how to work
harder than you ever have
for something you always thought you would have
but it's okay.
because time also taught me that
in a year
in seven months
in a second
the best thing:
how to love more than you ever thought possible.

on the days when church is difficult
just remember, jesus isn't

You know when after a long day,
You climb into bed,
Exhausted,
And you curl up,
Sinking into the bed,
Breathing becoming regular.
That's what loving you was like.
Rare, and comfortable.

The darkest, twisted alleys in the back of my mind,
Confusion, hurt, loneliness.
Yet also, across the way,
The happy, joyous, incandescent feelings:
they're mine.
And mine alone.
I thought no one would understand
I thought I was alone.
On my own.
Feeling so far gone yet so far up on cloud 9 no one could ever bring me down again.
But, believe me darling,  you're not.

For my deepest thoughts I thought no one could ever comprehend,
You put them into words.

It's a difficult matter
Being in between
Back and forth
To and fro
Because you can
And do,
Get lost in it.
The most confusing feeling,
I've discovered,
Is being homesick,
Without a home.