Summer Daze
Consisting of free wine and expensive cigarettes
Reminiscing past choices,mistakes, and regrets
I'm careless and career less  watching the sun set and rise
I'm realizing "Growing Up"
is  more than graduation goodbyes

So Many Thoughts running through my Mind As I Am Tossing these papers one at a time,
Early morning hours as the minutes tick away I'll Fall asleep in the morning and wake up later in the day.
Sometimes My Mind wanders and Some Say I need to control it but what is the value in that, when your mind is working and you choose to ignore it.

The Thoughts
RunningThrough My Mind  
Cannot Be Captured and Put Into Words
So I Sit Here and Ask Myself
"Why Try"

"Why do it", I ask.
What’s my prize for this task.
I’m going to bed, to bed I shall go.
But I’ll leave you with a great question.
Well at least I think so,
Have you ever wondered why life is so strange,
Why every choice you make leads to such a drastic change?
I know that I do every once in awhile, Think of some outcomes and Cry, Laugh or Smile.
You only get once chance to make any decision. No chance for a restart or any type of revision.
Live your Life and Make it Fun,
But in the end remember,
all you have
is One.

I Try to Dose Myself with Sleep
It Seems to Take Away the Pain
But I Never Seem To Get Enough
And I Really Don't Know Why

I Don't Write Poetry.
I Write the way I Feel.
I Don't follow any Rules.
Except that what I Write is Real.
The Way I Feel Is The Way I Write
And I Do Not Write That Often
But With Her Not Here
I Try To Fill a Void.
Because Sleep Is Scarce , Thoughts are Plenty
And  the Keyboard Always Listens.

I Guess  I Can say I Miss Her
And That I Can't Wait To See Her
But There is So Much More.
I Can't wait to Fall asleep next to Her
Wherever That May Be.
And Wake Up Next to Her Smile
That always Brings out the Best of Me

I Can't Wait For That First Hug
That Hug That Lasts Forever Yet Still Not Long Enough
I Can't Wait To Tickle Her and Just to Hear Her Laugh
A Laugh That Brings Back Memories of a PCH Hotel Room and A High School Parking Lot and So Many More
I Can't Wait To Have Her  Leg to Place My Hand On When I Drive
Most Of All I Can't Wait To Tell Here How Amazing She Really Is

I'm Really Not A Poet,
  I'm Really Just A Guy
     That Really Misses A Girl

The Comfort felt next to you is greater than the comfort of a bed.
That was something that I learned very quick.
Very Quick I knew that there was something special about you.
How I felt so connected in just One Month
One Month and two more  you had a tent in your car that went unused
Because two blankets and body heat was all We Needed.