She just lays in my lap
Most of the time
When she doesn't
She plays with my hair
Bating it back and forth
She looks at me with her
Big hazel eyes
Her fur so soft
And pure
I'll never let her go

When you reach a new level
You feel joy
All the work you did
Finally showed through
And now you're on a new level
But now that you moved up
You don't see the tiny steps
You make anymore
You only see the floors
Going by one after another
Slowly
But you got more joy
Out of all the little steps
Than all the floors combined
It's not like you don't want
To see them
It's  that you can't

He's usually so peaceful
But everyone has there
Breaking point
He snaps so quickly
Everyone stops
As he lets all the
Molten lava that has
Been eating at him
From within
Out
But as quickly as he
Snaps he pulls himself
Back together
Back to the peaceful
Mr.Volcano we know

No one likes a
Knight who returns
On time but they sure
Love one who's
Late
They were both there
But one had to go back
The one that was sent
Home had to go through
The feeling of
Not being there
This knight began
To hate themselves
While the other
Was left there protecting
Their prize
They waited and waited
For the other knight
Rarely did they show
On the day of return
Everyone loved the
Missing knight
Though the knight
Had returned the other
Knight hate for themselve
Did not end

I was once proud
To be apart of it
It was something
I tried to promote
But that was when
I first joined
We weren't the best
But we had a blast
Over the years we become
Better and better
As a team but
At a coast
Our spirit seemed
To fade
Many were my
Friends but now
They dwindle in
Numbers
What happened to
The Team?

They don't sew me
They only see the me
They want to see
They see do things
That seem bizarre
They can't figure it out
That I'm all the things
They see and more

She calls me Mr.Demon
She calls me alot of things
I try to tend to her needs
But I seem to still fail
I welcomed her into
My frozen home
Yet she still cries
Her tears
Are the coldest thing
To ever touch me
Yet she still calls me
Over to be
By her side

You'll get them next time
They always say that
I know its not true
no matter what
There's at least one
I could go the extra
Mile and some went
The extra two
Just knowing you are
Every single time
Is too much

I was always told
That being apart of a
Team
Was the greatest thing
But when I look at
This one
I feel like we hold
Ourselves back
We manage to
Accomplish our goals
But time is never
In our favor

How did it all
Come back to this
Everything I tried
To escape my pain
Fails I'm bounded
To it all
Arrows shot by haters
Find there home
Inside my heart
All I can do is
Lick my wounds
The only thing is
I help ease others pain

It's amazing
How people take things
For granite
Some people don't see
The luxury of having
Some one cook for you
A minute ago
I was cooking
And the smell brought
A tear to my eye
Because it smelled
Just like the one
They never made

Click
No not right
Maybe more light
Click
No still not right
Something more flashy
Click
NO
More makeup
Click
Almost
New pose
Click
There now I can just barely
See the real you

We're his best class
Grade wise
That's it
Everytime he blows up
It only last a few minutes
At worst
His feeling running
Wild outside of him
For such a short time
Obsidian surrounds us
Trying to straighten us
Back into order
It only last the day
Though
Before someone breaks
Through

I've lived most of my life
Trying to meet others
Expectation
Trying to do something
I know I can't
But they thinks it's
Funny
I'm forced to be
Reminded of my failures
For they are everywhere

I put my
Heart and soul
Into it everyday
But they think it's
All a ******* joke
All the sweat and
Blood
I put into it
And they don't
Want to even make
An attempt besides
Showing up

I was once a strong
Knight
Smart even
But
I'm not as sharp
As I once was
My armor grows
Heavy
But I can't bring
Myself to take it off

Some people say I don't
Care about most things
They're half right
They say I have no
Heart
Thats true
I gave it to someone
Special
They say I'm never happy
But they never  seen
Me witb her

I am accused
Of being a fraud
In a world were you can be
Whatever you want
And yet
I try to impress them
Writing whatever I feel
So someone will see
My true intentions
I only started this
Because they said
it could that I
could be happy
But it only seems
looking at the number
Stay the same causes
An absents of feeling
I could sit down
And think for
Days
Years
Or even the rest of
My life
And I would be able to
Make a piece of work
Worthy for them

Everything seems to go so well
But then I do something to *****
It all up
Envy is such a strong feeling
It makes you do things
You wouldn't normally
I just can't help it
It all just comes out before
I have the time to think
And disaster stacks
I'm pretty good at keeping
My emotions in check
But that one
Because of this I hurt people
I love and then I start
Hating myself and
Imagine if was never here

Why would anyone
Want the knockoff
When they could have
Something better
They ignore me
Only noticing when
They want something
Being a knockoff *****
You're alway compared
To the original

We all have our prisons
But whats the worse?
I don't know for sure
But I would have to say
Your own body
Sometimes I can feel
The harsh reality of me
Most of my emotion at times
Are locked away
No matter how much I try
I still act the same but just
With no emotion
But I think one day
I'll be released from this

I sleep alot
I don't mean to
I hate sleeping
When its not time
Everytime I wake
The feeling comes
My heart slowly
Pumps faster and then
I realize
I would never know
If my heart had
Stopped

She just so
Perfect
Her hair so calm
And steady
Her eyes so
Full of compassion
Now she does
Have her flaws
But my love for her
Is strong enough
To overlook those

They said I could
Be anything
They said I could
Do anything
They were wrong
I try so hard
And what am I?
Only third rate
I could never be
The one they wanted

I always seem to
Be there when they
Talk
They never notice
I always get the
Gossip of the day
They make the
Mistake
Of gossiping in front
Of me
The gossip some how
Gets passed along

Is that all we are
Numbers, a percentage
We're judge by that
Number
Either the one we're
Born wih or the one
We created to
Define us

As a knight
I must protect
My Queen
I'll be her servant
Until she no longer
Needs me
She'll never know
The sight of sorrow
Upon my face
Only the reassuring
Hope that everything
Will be ok

They're all better
I can think of the most
Fantastic
Brilliant
Of thinks
But thats where they remade
As thoughts
Never to be seen
For I don't have the talent
But they do

So fragile it can be
I'm often forget
How much it
Can take before
It breaks
It goes through
Years of abuse
For it's user
Pleasure
And repairs itself
To go through
It all again

I'm not really the
Leader type
But people say I am
All I see myself as
Theone wh does all
The work some how
No matter what
It's me
Not even my group
That I choose
It's me
They all just sit there
And watch me
I'm never in the best
Of health but I
Never stop
I  have  to  keep  going
I tell myself
Never really resting
Always thinking

Its just so easy
Why do I try so hard
When I cos end it all
Its only a bit away
Ready to do the job
If I let it
Eyes turn into
Waterfalls
Then it's over

My Queen has became
Afraid of this monster
I stood my ground
And fought it off
I didn't defeat it
She became
Terrified
My sword
Cracked and chipped
My shield
Scratched and dented
As long as my
Helmet
Was fine she wouldn't
Know that I was
Terrified of this monster

Even thougb they aren't there
I can still feel them
The dead cold grip
Digging into my skin
Restricting my movement
Some see that I'm bounded
And ask
Why do I stil wear them
I tell them
If i take them off
New ones will take there place
The links may be broken
But I'm still bounded

Everywhere you look
There's an infinite
Combination of colors
I want people to be hooked
But their gaze never last
I slave away with my knit
Of needles and thread
Trying to fix the torn
Blanket that our mothers
Worked so *******
piece by piece

You seek for a king
But all I am is a
Knight
A king no more
I've failed once before
So I made myself
Stronger but gave up
My crown
For my armor

Most think nothing of it
They say it's just
Your subconscious
Making you see things
I'll admit I once
Thought that was true
But now?
I believe my mind is sent
To a different version
Of myself at random
Only for the time being
I feel, think, and understand
Just as they do
I'm sent back usually
When they die
Or some random
Time
Dying over and over
Just to wake up
To live my  life
That I have control over
Seems fine for now