Sometimes I wonder how we have made it this far
I care because you try
I see the effort you put in every day even if it's not for me
The invisible glue holding us together
On top of the fact that love isn't everything
If that isn't love than I don't know what is
Because life is everything and nothing
With you I feel free
To know that I can walk away but I have better things to do
I can be guilty of caring too much about anything and everything
Even when I skrew things up, you still accept me
And we persevere

I stay up sometimes
Not because im not tired
But to break patterns
To protect my energy
To seperate myself of leeches
Disguised as everything
All of us have ever wanted
To keep me immune
To prevent myself from inhaling toxicity
Im willing to watch what happens next

I dont think those painful black memories that live in ancient cracks are bad
They create a font of gothic print
Stamped on the only things in life you've ever loved
They are the hands that open the door for you every time

Years of loneliness held into one single moment
All once replaced with distractions
Instead, why can't I just matter?
All my fears gather together to face me and tell me to fight
I am stronger than ever under pressure
Maybe I just fear the unknown lands that wait for me up North
The flock of birds in the sky attempting to guide me
To my birth place where I can plant seeds
The sky has cleared up
Yet I wish I was free
But if I want to be something in this world
I can't just leave
And if I just up and left,
I'd expect you to come with me
What if you didn't come with me

There is a girl
Who always looks like shes waiting
For something or someone
And still to this day,
I take a seat and watch for magic
Perhaps day without night
There has got to be something good
Any normal person would have left already
But the rain pouring down
Tells me she is not to blame
Tells me she has unfinished business
She still belongs to the garden
Giant shiny green plants with teeth
Devour her back into their wrath
Where she incubates
She must prove she is ready

I want to give my love
I want to share this stuff and keep some for me in a jar,
I want the responsibility of myself
I want to show raw emotions aching in my body
transformed into something light
And we can smile and laugh at ourselves and be playful
I want to give my love
Share a breath
Matter pressed together in little *****
bouncing off the walls
A liberating moment