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Kasaundra Watta Jun 2010
always there when i need you
always around by my side
always there when i want to cry
and you were there when i almost died

together through all the tears
together through all the restless nights
together through the smiles and laughs
and we made it through all the never-ending fights

nothing could ever break us apart
nothing could pull us down
nothing could get inbetween us
and i never wished to make you frown

we might have been through a lot
we might have been through tears
we might have been through tons of ****
but i would never regret these four years

after everything you've ever said
after everything you've denied
after everything we came through
tears of joy i have cried..

so thank you for always being here
and thank you for being my friend
thank you for everything you've done
friends until the very end<3
June 11th, 2o1o
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
in instant anticipation
i want to go into isolation
death is an accumulation
the sound of a gun replays in my mind
i always thought i was one of a kind
i consintly think 'just shoot and die'
but then i remember who id be leaving behind
all loose ends, kept untied
my existence finally unshy
i pull out the razor and cut again
i look at blood and im not ashamed
i have no care in the world
wether im dead or alive
'cause this life, i wont survive
death is what I began to thrive
May 10th, 2o1o
Kasaundra Watta Aug 2010
her eyes wander the room
searching for her lost and battered soul
and it begins to slowly
take its toll

a gentle tear rolls down her painted face
a girl who is utterly lost in space..
he broke her heart,
not once,
but twice

it was only like a game of dice.
she weeps in the shadows
and no one knows who she is
or where she'll go

shes a mystery wrapped up in shimmering scars
and she resembles a portrait of a fallen star
she wishes endlessly that someone would help her
possibly find a reasonable cure

every night as she lays herself to sleep,
her agony worsens
as the pain in her lonely heart flows deep
depressing songs flood the radio

and once again,
thoughts rush through her head
of a discusting man
she used to call her precious romeo

now, shes done with the intolerable pain
shes becoming madly insane
so careless
she slashes her taunting vein

*she wears a scarlet dress
knowing that no one can fix this aweful mess
but in this very moment
she couldn't care less
Written By Briana *******lt;33
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
held within a withering heart
the blood begins to slowly start
flowin out of the open ****
as my images begin to flash

before my very eyes
my heart slows,
and begins to die
body trembling,
head spinning,
fighting the pain,
but now it's winning

blood begins to flow like the ocean
body numb, with no emotion
tears streamin like rain
now i feel  unsane

eyes shaking,
nothings clear
now i blame him,
cause he's not here

if he were sitting by my side
this poor girl would have never died
May 6th, 2010
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
Losing my mind
never been kind
can't think of the last time
you were mine
abused when i was nine
didn't see the signs
between your girls and mine
has been so good from the start
darling, please, trust me with your heart
you remain my angel and i feel that i must
tell you, that within you, you have my trust
frustrated and confused
dont know what to do
i just want you to know,
i love you
my love is the tide
your soul is the shore
you have my heart,
do i have yours?

never thought we'd be together
but again, i want us to last forever
May 10th, 2o1o
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
crawling back into my skin
ugly feel of death and sin
eyes roll back and start to decay
body never felt this way
shakin, trembling, quivering with fear
yet he sings "come back my dear"
whispering from her corpse
my soul begins to slowly worpe
into a whole new beautiful shape
clothing, red ribbon, wings of black disgrace
wearing brand new etire
wrapped in a plated barbed wire
burning through my skin and flesh
bringing me closer and closer to death
Kasaundra Watta Jul 2010
dark places
slightly humanoid faces
weightless air
with nothing there

unless, of course
you count those voices
of those deranged
in the mental mind
seeking others
of their kind

do you come from this world
complicated things unfurled
none the less
ive done my best
but the rest,
is yet to be done
July 19th, 2o1o
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
the blood from your heart,
bleeds from an innocent wound
made by a man who tore you to pieces
her life was sound without a beat
music without a rhythm
blues without soul
her life was nothing but a waste of flesh and bones
her blood ran like the water of a fluent stream
her skin, the color of water past the point of purity
her eyes the color of darkness
and her fingers the color of a beautiful rose
razors weren't the enemy
but as oblivious as she seemed
her enemy was the evil rested upon her soul
Inspired by Gabbie<3
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
Got my baby back in my life
one day i wish to be his wife
but for no im just a ****
who doesn't know what she wants in life
cause in the end it's all the same
so weak and lame
wish i had more money and fame
to get my mind of this
it hurts, my head, and my fist
i just wish we were still together
but we both know we couldn't have lasted forever
knowing we want to be more then friends
god, this feeling is getting to my head..
Inspired by the confusing feeling you get with guys
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
when i was little
i used to be a dope man
black cars,
green bars,
cause im the dope man
my mama said what the hell
i said mama me the dope man
in my hood
we got three or four dope mans
but i dont speak about them,
why?
cause im the ****** dope man.
Inspired by Derric James<3
Kasaundra Watta Oct 2010
"baby, your smile
makes the sun shine brighter
your kisses, make me feel weightless
like im a hundred pounds lighter"

my heart is now broken,
this is no longer the case
heart shattered into millions
it can't be fixed, nor replaced

so now i grab the knife
and hold it to my skin
i slowly twist it to the light
and press the point in

into my wrist,
watching the blood caress the blade
i was scared at first
but i am no longer afraid

i lift my head to the now darkened sky
the tears tardily roll down my face
as i pray to the lingering air
to the tune of my hearts, unsteady pace

i raise the blade out
and see the shattered veins
i look down, now knowing comepletely
that this will be the end of my days

makeup smeared down my cheeks
as i prey not to awake tomarrow
i hope no one finds me like this
not laying in my own sorrow

the puddle of blood surrounds me
as i look down at the **** in my arm
i start to think of everyone else
this will eventually harm

i reach for the phone
hardly seeing throught he tears im crying
but i no longer have the strength
i can feel myself quickly dieing

laying on the floor, completely helpless
nothing i can do, nor anyone else
the blood still pours and pours
slowing down my pulse

i am on the edge of death
and i try to scream
i get out a bit of a tune
before i started an unending dream
October 3rd, 2o1o
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
When im with you
i get butterflies
i love to gaze
into your eyes
the touch of your hand
sends a chill
i cant explain
the way i feel
these feelings are new
the pain goes away
when im with you
when your gone
my heart cries
i dread the moment
we say our goodbyes
then i see you
and my heart starts to heel
i love you so much
and always will
Inspired by Micheal Preston<3
Kasaundra Watta Jun 2010
one day he came to rescue me
and instead he threatened me
told me to get down to my knees
and beg for my life, "oh please oh please"

i begged and cried and sobbed and shook
but my life, he still took
he ripped out my heart, a ****** red
then he chopped off my gorgeous head

blood slattered all over the walls
no one could hear my screaming calls
although i am immortal and will never die
my head is chopped off, so i cry

i scream in horror and try to fight back
then my voice begins to crack
i can no longer scream or speak
it only comes out a tiny creek

i writhed and struggled to get him away
i have nothing else to do, but pray and pray
i hope to god he helps me
look down god, and me you will see!

i can no longer move and no longer stand
i wish someone would come and give me a hand
someone come and find me here
i cant do anything, this problem is queer

i lay there confused, and once again try to scream
but then i wake up from that horrid dream
Inspired by a dream i had<3
Kasaundra Watta Oct 2010
everytime i look at you
i see your shining smile
i look into your gorgeous brown eyes
and see into my denial

i know that i love you
i know this feeling is true
i just wish you could see
how much I truely mean to you

i try to avoid the pain
of seeing myself with him
when i deeply want to be tied to you
ill dump him on a wim

sweety i would love to have
your fingers intertwined between mine
maybe you not wanting to be with me,
is only just a sign?

i tell myself to let you go
time and time again
but in the end all i do
is cry and cry like rain

tearing me slowly apart
is the thoughts that i have had
contimplating and knowing i want you, so badd

even though i wish i didnt
i know that i love you
i just wish that you could see
how much I mean to you...
Inspired By Brian Ray<33
Kasaundra Watta Aug 2010
i guess you can consider
this my suicide letter,
nothings ever gonna
make this better

maybe i will meet someone
and actually stay together, forever,
its time for my lights to go
with a shot of glory

yeahh, this is my life story
i met this girl i was gonna marry
i know she was the one but now im
confused and stunned everyday

i feel more and more pain
within the blood in my veins
i cant tame it anymore i feel so ashamed
im gonna leave her cause she seems to be

happier this way
so im not gonna ****** stay
i dont know what to, yeahh i do
imma end my life because
shes never gonna be my wife

put a knife to my throat
a gun in my mouth
pull the trigger and watch
the lights go out

goodbye for ****** good
im finally leaving out the hood
maybe i will find someone in the afterlife
because this knife seems to be the only thing
that can stop this unbearable pain

im done, done crying,
im done, done hurting,
cause shes with him and it seems
like im never gonna win

i give my all and only get half back
always bein yelled at
for everything i do..
and you thinkin imma cheat on you

its time for my lights to go out
in glory, i got the gun in my mouth
and the ****** knife in my hand
can someone just knock me out
</3
Written By Michael Preston<3
Kasaundra Watta Mar 2010
The only mistake I ever made,
was sitting back and feeling afraid
never running any plays
feeling that loss is my fault
at the end of the day


and it is by what the stats will display
but look into my eyes
i'm doing everything i can
you can yell all you want
but i'm only one man
you can try to bring me down
but yet i will still stand
Kasaundra Watta Sep 2010
i now know
what it is like
to lose.

to lose the person
that you hold
closest to your heart.

to lose the one
and only person
that ever ment
anything in the
world to you.

to lose the one
who made you laugh
who could rarely
make you cry.

and the one
who could always
make your day..
Inspired By Michael Preston<3
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
Stuck behind the eyes of a child
feeling like a phone, undialed
a text unread
something else to dred
stuck behind the smile of a loner
feeling the vibe of a stoner
**** wrapped up
sippin' ***** from a lil' cup
stuck behind the heart of the broken
feeling like an unused token
lever totally unpulled
machines heart redulled
stuck behind the life of me
feeling like a failure to what I must be
heart reshattered
like I ever even mattered...
May 7th, 2o1o
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
stuck on a path of no return
the fire of love with always burn
through your soft, breakable heart
the pain of love with surely start

more then just a willowing fright
the road of love will set you right
stright, down the street of torment
the pain of love leads you to decent

so i ask myself one simple question,
the fire of love leads to a sudden depression
but is it all really worth it
cause love will slowly rip you  apart
bit. by. bit..
Inspired By Micheal Preston<3
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
The evil stare
the depressive glare
the cut on her arms
the rings and alarms

in her ears
here comes the tears
of a beautiful girl
stuck in a world of no return

her eyes turned red
her soul turned black
doesn't know when her love
will come back

awake at night
living with nothing but fright
the death lights
shine so bright

brighter then ever before
as her arms begin to bleed more
the old cuts begin to scar
as she sits and etches more

of what she wants
and his name
her tears show
no soleum shame

she knows
there is no gain
for all those tears
and so much pain

when he left
he broke her heart
and that is when
the cutting starts

she thinks there nothing left of her
so she cuts, and cries, and burns
trying to take her own life away
only because he wouldn't stay

sets down the razor
holdss a gun instead
holds it tigher
to her head

her eyes start to tremble
her body quivers
the hand with no gun
begins to shiver

he wouldn't take
what she had to give
so she decided
not to live
Inspired by Kyle Henley<3
Kasaundra Watta Oct 2010
the flavor of your kisses
leave me suddenly stunned
pulling back my hair
as you pull out the gun

press it to my shouder blades
and pull the trigger back
as you say those hurting words
"this is for the love you lack"

hearing you begin to cry
while im laying on the floor
motionless am i,
as you say "it was you that i adored"

shooting me again,
all down my broken spine
you laugh maliciously,
and you hear me scream and whine

finally you numb my pain
with one more blow to the head
congragulations to you,
i am finally dead

from my abrupt body,
my soul begins to rise
and then i see you from above,
the tears pour out your eyes

i can hear you praying
quietly to yourself
i wish i wouldve though
of more then just myself

now i am in heaven
still watching over you
and everyday i see you cry
because theres nothing you can do

you cannot fix
what it already done
now im laying on heavens floor
as you drop the gun

then you cry for hours on end
cutting your wrist so thin
as an angel, i protect you
but not from your feelings within

you look up to the black sky
staring at the stars
then you say "i did love you"
and look back down at your scars

then you pick the gun back up
and hold it to your head
then you say "baby ill join you"
as you shoot yourself, dead.

**now in heaven, you lay next to me
and we reunite
a tragic end for both,
for one loveless fight..
October 5th, 2o1o
Kasaundra Watta Aug 2010
this is my last goodbye
im done and out for good
i have went through more pain
then any human being should

the destruction of my heart
and the slowed down beat
makes me think that maybe
my exsistence should delete

my confusion ****** it all up
and in the end he made me choose
well i took to long and now hes gone
there's nothing else to lose

pulling my hair out
looking for the feeling we had yesterday
so this is my goodbye, i love you
thats all i have to say

i have unfortunetly lost you,
i miss having all your attention
i miss your touch, so so very much
and your comforting affection

but in the end i just wasnt enough
at least not enough for you
you had me wrapped around your finger
but that still made 'my love untrue?'

this was your excuse to leave me
dangling on an edge
as you walk slowly away
after pushing me off the ledge
Inspired By Kyle<3
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
baby's got the beat
but he can't take the heat
'cause rap is the sweets
to the sort of musical treats
pressures gonna **** him
even if he feels the rythem
Inspired by Jesse McNeil<3
Kasaundra Watta Dec 2010
lies, all around me
all he did was lie
lie to me, lie to my family
lie about everything.
all he did was want to make me snap
he wanted to make me scream
he wanted to watch me break
he wanted me to blow up.
he makes me cringe
he makes me cry
he makes me want to slit my wrist
he makes me want to die.
hes nothing but a *******
hes nothing but a waste
a waste of skin and bones
with the intellegence of a rock.
hes got enough brains to let him talk
let him walk
let him chew bubble gum and walk at the same time
and then the intellegence stops.
hes nothing to me anymore
hes broken all trust with me
hes killed the feelings i had
hes destroyed the heart i held together
just for him.
hes the one i would **** off
if only i had the chance
the chance to break his neck
to stab him right in the heart
to make him feel like he made me
to make him feel like death was his only escape.
i want to make him feel like me.
i want him to suffer
i want him in pain
i want him to completely scream
just because thats the only release.

I want him, to try and fill my shoes.
and see if the lies he told me, would be
something he'd take back.
December 10th, 2o1o
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
I just wanna die
I dont want to be alive
i dont want to survive
I just want to be a small teen
living in a world of scenes
no matter what im going through
but i dont know what the hell to do
the support i need isnt coming through
he just left me here
told me i could go anywhere
as long as i was away from him
he gave me that beautiful evil grin
with those gorgeous eyes you could get lost in..
Inspired by Kyle Conely<3
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
This is a very explicite poem*


im gonna hit that *****
shes gonna be gushing blood from her stitches
i can tell her whole bodies got twitches
my nine is gonna make her whine
that ***** better make my dome shine
im gonna backhand that ***
she better not **** with my head
or shes gonna be in the streets
and not in my bed
****** up a million times
wish i could take it back
but she has no right to make my anger snap and crack
my hearts burning like the hot heat of a flame
im gonna ***** this ***** up and wont have any shame
i'll admit im an angel that cant sing
sitting back and letting her do her thing
feeling weak in my soul, body and mind
got more potential then any producer could find
got nowhere in life with her by my side
but in my heart, she has left and died
now the puddle of blood at the foot of my shoes
theres no way that this far into it, i could lose
but being madly in love has its disadvantages
but for now that skanky ***** is in bandages
Inspired by that point of anger where you just want to punch something
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
The one with the pink bows in her hair
giving you that graceful stare
she falls in love, her eyes turn to hate
he broke her heart, nothing to appreciate
eyes turn ****** red
as she holds the gun up to his head
heart turned to solid stone
the side of her that is now shown
the side that no one likes to see
the pain rested deep inside me
the bleeding begins to start
when i blast the pistol through his heart
now you see that my pain
is your pain without a gain
Kasaundra Watta Mar 2010
waves crashing
child splashing
newborn baby
growing up crazy

teenage years
mom brought to tears
boy crisist
bro's advice is
let it be
thats the key

key to her heart
then the love starts
heart get broken
she starts smokin'

slowly dieing
eyes are cryin'
begining of sadness
she stops the madness

hits adult stage
makin minimum wage
she's tryin'
still survivin'

kids of her own
livin' off a loan
but makin her way
her kids always say
no matter what, she cares
and by their side, shes there

kiss on the cheek
she don't feel weak
sick of the pain
startin' to gain

her kids grow up and in college
gettin more knowledge
she's gettin' older
but she's strong like a soldier

she lives it through till the end
before she passes all ties mend
her daughter becomes a wife
then sadly the end of mom's life
Inspired by my mom<3
Kasaundra Watta Jun 2010
i really don't want to say goodbye
not after all the nights that i've cried
after all the things that we've been through
i'm always going to remember you.

i truly will never leave your side
and on you, i will always rely.
the bond between us will never end
because when knots untie, you're still my best friend.

of all the times we used to fight
and all the phone calls, late at night
with your beautiful eyes plain in sight
i don't lie when i say our friendship is tight.

but as our friendship grows stronger our
bonds stay tied
through the ups and the downs our
attitudes collide

you've always been there through
good and bad
and i want you to know, you're the
best friend i ever had.

no matter what, i'll never forget you
its always been only us two.
without you, it will slowly destroy me.
and i wish that you could really see

how much the past four years
have meant to me
in the end, you'll always be
my bestie<3
Inspired By My Best Friend Dakota<3
Kasaundra Watta Oct 2010
he put that ring on my finger,
and looking at it kills me.
but everytime he tells me he loves me,
i say it back.
even though i don't mean it.
i dont think he knows...
there;s someone else.
some i actually love.
someone i cant go a day
without thinking about.
someone who has no idea i'm falling
in love with him
i wish he knew.
i wish he would see how much he means to me
i wish i knew if he loved me back.
getting mixed signals all the time...
it hurts.
it tears at my heart.
and my soul.
i wish i could straight up tell him
baby im falling in love with you
but im scared of what his responce could be
i wish it was "me too.."
cause then i could be his.
which is all i want.
i just wish he knew.
everytime i see him my heart cries
everytime i text him
my heart jumps to my throat.
i wish he knew how he makes me feel
how he makes me smile..
i wish he truely felt my love..
but he doesnt.
and therefore,
my heart cries.
Inspired By A Certain Someone<3 {Ducki, i lovee you}
Kasaundra Watta Jun 2010
as the razor lays upon my skin
this is a battle i couldnt win
i press down and start to scrape
again my arm, the pain i cant take

i start to cry, and my body shakes
i stare at the puddle of blood it makes
red rain drips down like a waterfall
i wish i could just forget it all

left in this world all alone
heart has turned to cold, friggid stone
eyes become pallid, body becomes lame
nothing will ever be the same

the images around me become black
i can't believe he made my heart crack
into a million little pieces
my heart rate slowly decreases

left on the floor, because i can no longer stand
blood still running down my fragile hand
each and every old scar
reminds me of who you are

the one i was always in love with
now my body begins to writhe
i am now laying dead on my back
because of you, my heart has cracked
Inspired by Kyle<3
Kasaundra Watta Jun 2010
to the one i truely loved,
you shattered my heart in two
the only reason behind my tears
is oblivious you

and my eyes begin to pour like pelting rain
as i once more see you with her again
her in your hand, right where i belong
i have fallen apart, but i try to stay strong

i pretend nothings wrong, and put on a show
i regret letting him leave, and letting him go
i watched him walk out the door, and didnt stop him
now i lay crying, soleumly and grim

the pain burns like a kindling fire
i am now wrapped in barbed wire
i miss him touch, i miss his smile
i wish he missed me, and wasnt in denial

the scars on my wrist show i have lost him for good
i love him so much, and i wish he understood
that love isnt something you can pass by
especially after all the nights i've cried

i wish that he could know my pain
and know that being alone has no gain
i wish he knew my heart has shattered
because after seeing him with her


*my heart is completly mattered
Inspired By Kyle Henley<3
Kasaundra Watta Oct 2010
mommy, you have raised me
from such a little girl
now im so much more
then just your little purl

mommy, youve been here for me
when i just felt the need to cry
and youve helped me through the times
ive just thought to die

mommy, your my role model
you raised me so well
youve kept my spirit up
when my confidence fell

mommy, i have grown up
youve lighten up my life
and youll be the one to walk me
when i become someones wife

mommy, you will be there
when my first baby screams
and youll be there
when my baby has bad dreams

mommy, im lucky to have you
always by my side
you defend me till the end
until one of us diee.

mommy, i know it hurts you
to see me walk away
when you tell me "i love you"
i dont know what to say

mommy, i know i dont say it back
not very often at all
but in the end you know i do
and ill catch you if you fall

mommy, you have picked me up
when i was to weak to stand
you have walked me on the right trail
leading, hand in hand

mommy
,  i just wanted to thank you
for all that you have done
and tell you mommy,
** i love you
Inspired By My Mom<3
Kasaundra Watta Oct 2010
in my secret world
there is no pain or tears
in my screat world
there is no screams or fears

in my secret world
there is only smiles
in my secret world
there in no denial

in my secret world
there is love and lust
in my secret world
there is no such thing as trust

in my secret world
there is no mudd or dirt
in my secret world
no one can get hurt

in my secret world
nothing ties me down
because in my secret world
im the princess that wears the crown
Inspired By a BabyGirl I Babysit<3
Kasaundra Watta Oct 2010
there is no way she could ever love you
not like me.
never.
there is no way anyone could.

the way she looks at you,
and pulls you closer.
the way she kisses you
and cuddles close.
she will never love you
not like me.
never.
the way the sun shines to your eyes,
and she protects you.
the way she hold your hand,
and holder you tighter when she sees me.
she'll never love you
not like me.
never.

i wish you could see
that i could love you better.
i could hold you tighter.
i could kiss you more gently.
i could pull you closer.
i could protect you moree.
baby, i wish you could see,
i could love you better.

the way she stares you down,
and runs her fingers through your hair.
the way she shows how much she cares,
and giggles at your jokes.
she will never love you
not like me.
never.
This poem is strictly about Brian Ray<3
Kasaundra Watta Oct 2010
Left alone to survive
in a world, unsurvivable
graspin onto anything
knowing life is faint, is undeniable
trying deeply to put faith
toward something unrealiable

stepping closer to something
shining very black and dank
stooping apon a ledge, trying
to think, but drawing a blank
when your whole body goes numb
and all reasonable thoughts have sank

when pullin you closer
to the black darkness starts,
and once you fall to your death
your world is suddenly ripped apart
while your body goes pale
you realize you have no beat to your heart
Inspired By {Papa Roach(:}
Kasaundra Watta Jul 2010
a pale malvolent hand
shines as brightly in the dark
a body moves quietly
slightly **** to stark
mechanically watching
waiting in the dark
and the games
still have yet to start

eyes of blue crystal
and far from expression
jewels shored in the owners head
without them they'd surely
be dead

should it be
non living human
not quite
but slightly an android
moves with a grace
that is someone paranoid

a voice cuts into the ears
like razor blades
not quite hot
but yet it blazes

nails long
but unpainted
fingers long
like broken sticks
one cuts off
still leaving six..
Inspired by A crazy dream<3
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
living in the tention
of a life no one with ever understand
going through things people would never imagine
hearing voices no one else can hear
living somewhere i dont belong
but facing the fact that i'll never fit in
to be a family of friends
attached at the hip
knowing that we're no where near the end of the journey
yet watching it all fade away before your very eyes
watching yourself fade from the picture of life
fading, fading, fading
into the background wih no intention of ever being seen
in this world again
blinded from the bright light you one day intend to follow
down the dark path with no visable stop
into a innocent black hole
leading to what you fear most
alive in your own heart
but dead to the human mind
Inspired by that feeling of invisablilty<3
Kasaundra Watta Jun 2010
you don't know the pain i go through
to see you wrap your arm around her
all the tears i still cry
are for the reminiscing memories of what we were

our love fades and your love grows
and you push me away to pull her close
i miss your hand over mine
and our fingers intertwined

your passionate glare, and that "come here baby" smile
drag me into our lust, and out of the "i don't love you" denial
you tell me you love me, and always will
but when it comes down to it, its you and her still

the anticipation of me and you
tears you apart too?
i don't believe it, its not true
there's signals and signs through the things you do

i cant believe i let this tear me apart
there is no end to this start..
this isn't a lie, this is completely true..

baby, of course i still love you<3
Inspired by Kyle<3
Kasaundra Watta Jun 2010
this one amazing guy,
that no one could ever understand
has dropped me harder,
and faster then i have ever planned

his hand let go of mine,
and i have fallen severely
he doesnt see at all,
that i love him sincerely

my heart is now mangled,
my tears start to stimulate
my wrist now has slits,
and my addrenaline accelerates

my head seems to spin,
and my blood seems to rave
my lips turn to stone,
and his lips i crave

my body is numb when it realizes,
the irresistable passion lyin within
the blood gushes but i dont care,
knowing that the razor never cuts thin

deep into my skin it pierces,
as i etch back and forth
this is love,
i never had to force

as my whole body collides,
and my heart shatters
he looks at me and laughs,
like nothing between us even matters

my skin color flushes,
and my eyes turn dull
nothing could solve this unbearable pain,
nothing ever does

but before i had his hand in mine,
his stunning body next to my side
my smile slowly fades away,
and he tells me he wont stay

he leaves me speechless,
laying almost dead on the floor
and in the end all i wanted,

**was just one kiss more
Inspired by the thought of michael ever leaving me<3
Kasaundra Watta Oct 2010
Daddy, please dont leave us
you know you cannot go
you cannot leave your babygirls
not before you watch us grow

daddy, please dont tell us its alright
when we both know its not
just please please please,
dont let us go tonight

daddy, you have to be here
when we fulfill our dreams
you also have to be here
when our first baby screams

daddy, you cannot leave us
without you we'd go nowhere,
and when we graguate from college
daddy, you must be there!

all the nights waking up screaming
and all the past days
that you've woken up
hardly breathing

daddy, when you fall
all we wanna do is help you up
and when you tell us no, to stop
we both feel our hearts quickly drop

daddy, when me and vicky
see pain through your eyes
our own very eyes
start to slowly cry

daddy, please we love you
you gotta hang tight, for us
you have to save three lil' princesses
and prince charmings heart

daddy, we need you
to a longer extent then you think
we need you here with us
to guide us to our dreams

daddy, knowing we're slowly losing you
is a pain we cannot bear
and killing us inside
is the thought that one day

*
you won't be here...
To My Replacement Daddy, I Love You<3 (vicky is my best friend, the three princesses r me vicky and nicole, prince charming is alex, his other kids)
Kasaundra Watta Jul 2010
her heart broken
her eyes shed tears
her smile fades
out with her fears

scared of the future
ashamed of the past
i truely hoped
this love would last

but once again
i am left dieing
sitting, screaming
bleeding, crying

heads pulsing
body quivers
eyes shake
spine shivers

nothing can heal
this unbealivable pain
tears pour
like unstoppable rain

blood rushes
with my afflicted heart
like a completed puzzle
torn apart

it keeps going and going
never to stop
almost like
it'll never just plop
out, like an answer to a riddle

so vague
yet in your face
wait i don't get it
is this never to be placed?

its ripping and ripping
the bloods dripping..
all over the floor
i have to be tripping

no, this is my life
piece it back together
the puzzles complete
and the pain remains

she picks herself up
she gets off the floor
her heart is in pain
it can't take much more

but yet she stands
strong, like..
she knew she could be
put down the gin
today the pain doesnt win
Joint poem with Kyle<3
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
basketball isn't just a game
it's a passion
like rap isn't music
it's a fashion
simple rhymes turn to magic
like simple shots turn to baskets
plays turn to passing isolations
drives the lane, put it up,
against the guy your facing
it all comes down to having pacience
if you dont
no matter how good you are
your game needs maintenance
crooked shots you need to straighten it
bad pass you need to aim that ****
throw it like you aim to miss
Inspired by the passion of rap and basketball<3
Kasaundra Watta Sep 2010
you've never seen the world
through my life and eyes
i never would've loved you
if i knew it was just lies

but now the pieces are broken
and it will take more
then just givin a lil help
and all back together again

and all the blood lost
and all the scars made
will never make up
for all the lust filled days

and it wasnt just lust
for the love
but for the blood
and if i move at all
youll see the pattern of the cuts

and there will never be
enough drugs
to take all the pain
away from me..
Inspired By Love<3
Kasaundra Watta Aug 2010
Got that pretty boy swag,
got his pants down to his knees
got that gorgeous girl style,
still not good enough for his needs

supposedly im the bestest,
and we were gonn last forever
but then i found out he cheated,
second chance? no, never

**** life, **** love,
nothing cures my broken heart
the blood now rolls down my arm,
there is no end to this horrible start

no girl could ever be pretty enough,
***** got his ego so far up his ***
i definitly am way to good,
for the kid with the hidden **** stache

he's to **** for me?
just because he's got eight flowers?
no way he wouldn't cheat...
and now he's got a daughter..

and where am i in this ****?
**** the little ***** and his ****** up ways
i am at the end of his priority list,
how long we been datin'? im done addin days

this **** ****** me off
and wrecked my heart to pieces,
this is one thing youll never fix
not even swearing on your grandmothers ashes..

**you probably feel ashamed
for the scarlet dress i now wear..
well you shouldve thought about that before
cause i know you truely dont care..
Inspired By Cameron Jenkins<33 **p.s. flowers means abs, its a code for some of my friends**
Kasaundra Watta Oct 2010
sliding up and down
no fraction at all
i feel like i am
just going to fall

and you will not save me
youll leave me there to die
cause your rollercoaster of love
just keeps passing me by

then it finally stops
and we can go together
riding hand and hand
i could do this forever

but then once again
our realtionship stops
and i go to the bottom
instead of the top

waiting in line
for just one more chance
you munipulate me
and leave me in a trance

and once again,
i go back up
and you drop me down
feels like our love just blew up
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
the child plays gracefully on the slide
think about how her love is like a tide
pushing and pulling along the shore
but all she wants is just a little bit more
more of whatever he has to give
cause in her mind, she needs him to live
like the shells across the sea,
the rippled surface reminds myself of me
different mistakes but in the same pattern
but in the end, he's all that matters
our toes stuck in the warm sand
holding on tightly to each others hand
the glare in his eyes, the look of love
he knows hes not a soul above
but he knows he's like my tide
and i hope he's always by my side<3
Inspired by Michael Preston<3
Kasaundra Watta Jul 2010
this is crazy
never done
watch closely
the barrel
of the gun

stupid boy
holds it to his temple
he'll blow his brains out
if i dont help him
not to show him how its done
but to teach him not to play with guns

very slowly
with slight grace
i pull the gun
from his face
i cant believe
he was so tired
he fell asleep
without one bullet fired
Inspired by an old friend</3
Kasaundra Watta Jun 2010
I have fallen for someone just a little older
though, my heart seems to only be getting colder
i lied and said it was a four year difference
but when he found out it was five, it was only a disturbance

he left me alone, without someone there
to catch me when i fell, and left me in despair
now everythings my weakness, and i feel so heartbroken
he's left me alone, with so many words unspoken

nothing will ever fill that place in my heart
he has taken pieces of it with him, in his depart
i miss his arms wrapped around me so tight
and his kisses that got me threw every lonely night

a stupid decition put me in my own purgatory
and left me in sorrow, with no capeable glory
this pain spreads through my body like a fatal disease
the pain in my heart will never be at ease

i have cried so much i can no longer stand
i wish he would come and lend me a hand
fallen to the ground, with every relentless ache
i've lost him over a stupid, dazed mistake
Inspired By My Best Friend, Dakota<3
Kasaundra Watta May 2010
sun sets
eyes lock
one kiss
love unstopped
colors arrayed
across the sky
no lies
but then she dies
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